Do You Wanna Build a Snowman?
A/N: I don't own the song, "Do you wanna build a snowman?". All rights go to the songwriters of Frozen and Disney Animation.
I felt inspired by this song and I thought of Demi and her sister, Maddie for some reason.
*TRIGGERING for SELF HARM*
Demi's POV
"Demi!" It's my little sister, Madison who is 5 years old, knocking on my bedroom door.
"Do you wanna build a snowman?
Come on let's go and play
I never see you anymore
Come out the door
It's like you've gone away
We used to be best buddies
And now we're not
I wish you would tell me why."
I wish I could too, baby girl. But, I can't. I think to myself. You know that and it hurts me to know I can't do the things we used to do. I am so sorry Maddie, but we're not allowed to see each other again. Mom said I will only hurt you. She just wants to protect you, baby girl.
I look at the disaster that is my room. It looks like a tornado. I have my songbook laying open upside down next to my wall and pillows and clothes thrown everywhere. To make matters worse, I have blades of all kinds covered in my blood spread out in my room. Some of my clothes are covered in puke from purging.
When I come down for my meals, I eat with my family, but not with my little sister. Because I always get nervous for gaining weight from the food, I usually purge it out later in the bathroom that's connected to my bedroom.
"Do you wanna build a snowman?
It doesn't have to be a snowman."
She asks me this every time she passes by my door in the halls. I know she knows I can't play with her, but she keeps asking, thinking I would say "Yes" eventually. I never have. And every time I say,"Go away, Maddie."
I love my baby girl to bits, but the thought that Maddie keeps reminding me I can't be with her makes me afraid of telling her the reason why. She's too young to understand and I don't want to hurt her anymore than I've already had.
"Okay, bye.", she says sadly. I hate the way my life turned out. It made me lose touch with my sister. The one who always brightens up my day with her laughter and playfulness. And I hate that I'm the reason why she barely smiles anymore.
Even ten years later, Maddie comes and knocks on my door asking me to come out or let her in.
"Demi?", she knocks on my door softly. I can clearly hear the concern in her matured voice.
"Please, I know you're in there
People are asking where you've been
They say have courage, and I'm trying to
I'm right out here for you, just let me in
We only have each other
It's just you and me
What are we gonna do?"
I started to cry with my hands covering my face while trying to stifle the sound.
"Do you wanna build a snowman?"
I look up at my bedroom window in front of me, watching the winter landscape. To many people it's a sight to behold. To me, it symbolizes my life.
Cold. And lonely.
A/N: I apologize if it isn't that original but I really wanted to write this.
If you haven't watched Frozen yet, I recommend you go see it and not just 'cause Demi sings in the end credits. The song used in this chapter was sung by Anna and Elsa starting from when they were little and it was such a cute scene. I almost cried the second time heard the song. Haha. ^-^
