Life Of A Tree And Leaf

Feelings

I am the reason you feel the way that you are feeling, you were the reason I was feeling the way I was feeling. I've come to find out that I've just been being an asshole and pushing you away as you feel, but really I've just been so lonely and by myself these past couple of days that I kinda just went with the flow with everything.....I really started to think I was losing you by the way we kinda got distant so I just waited for some bad news.....Especially after all of our conversations this weekend. I really fucking love you, you are every part of me without you I can't function like gas to a car or a candle without a flame.....I just get scared sometimes (a lot of times) You're my pride and joy, and I love the fact that you are my first real love like YOU are the first one to meet my family you YOU my first and only sexual partner YOU are my heart because you have it......YOU are the most beautiful woman I've had the chance to call mine.....and as I lay here with tears in my eyes from what I've caused from you wanting to spend time with a friend and me feeling in second instead of first ruined a lot for you. I have never told you this but I have a lot of self doubt, so when you get to spend a lot of time with your guy friends like you did I start to think Im not good enough.....but maybe thats because we barely even get 4 hours to see eachother in a entire week..lets just say without you this Tamaryon would go away...
I love all that you do for me
I love your smile and the way you look at me
I love your hair
I love your face and every detail
I love your embrace
I love your personality
I love your heart
I love your soul
I love your mind
I love your will
I love your persistents
I love you for loving me
I love you for always coming back to me...
I love you for giving me a chance...
I love you for just...just everything
I love you for being loyal to me
I love you for being my Queen
I just wish....I wish that you could see my heart and tell me what was going on. I wouldn't leave you for the world. I would die inside without you...

I will continue writing later....but I'm sorry Im a asshole to you

Im sorry for being selfish

Im sorry for not having time...

Im sorry for everything wrong I was wrong about...

I just...I just want you and never want that to change