Bad For You

05

:: N A S H ::

Is it really her? The girl I love?

"Yep it's me," Ally said as she was staring into my eyes like she always did.

"H-how have you been?" I asked

"Good. I've been good." She lied. I could see the hurt in her eyes as she spoke.

"Sorry to break the emotional connection but, you guys know each other?" Cameron said

"Yeah, he was my foster brother back in North Carolina." Ally said.

Her voice still sounded like she was kissed by angels.

"Oh seriously?" Cameron asked.

"Yeah. I'll explain some other time. I'm gonna go inside." I said as I headed for the door.

:: A L L Y ::

"What he said." I said to Cameron. I hurried inside and I followed Nash to the kitchen. "Hey can you show me where my room is?"

"Sure." Nash said as he put his water down on the counter.

He offered his hand and I took it. I've been in this same position with him before. Him leading me to my room. It's not like it was awkward or anything. After-all, he did take my virginity. Him simply holding my hand wasn't doing any harm. We reached a set of double doors and Nash opened them. "This is my room?" I asked standing in awe at the sight of my room. The bed was in the middle of the room against the back wall. Above the head board, there was a drawing of a girl that looks sort of like the 16 year old me. There were other drawings of sceneries and things but this one caught my eye. "Is that me Nash?" I asked

"Yeah." Nash said "I still thought about you even when you had to go."

"I-I'm I'm awe Nash, when did you have the time to draw this? Aren't you like famous now? Mr. Magcon?" I asked.

"If it's for you, I have all the time in the world love." Nash said

"Nash, I'm so...sorry. But I can't do this with you, not now at least. I still love you but right now, I need to focus on me. I don't want to break your heart but maybe some time in the future, you can be mine again. You're too bad for me. And I don't want to risk anything. I'm sorry Nash." I said.

"It's okay. Maybe in time you'll be mine again." He said as he walked away letting go of my hand.

My heart broke at the sight of Nash like this. The only time I'd seen him like this is when was depressed about loosing a baseball game. I have to find it in my heart to forgive him for what he did. I can't just let him kill himself slowly over me.

Instead of sulking in my own way, I decided I was going to shower and change my clothes. After I showered, I put on my outfit which consisted of a black adidas crop top, adidas sweats, and socks. I was only going to put on mascara and lightly fill in my eyebrows since I didn't plan on going anywhere. There was a knock on my door just as I finished with my makeup. "Who is it?" I asked

"It's Matthew. Cam wanted me to tell you that he has a friend named Jack coming over and he wants you to meet him. Something about singing with him or something. I don't really remember but just come downstairs." He said