The prelude to love

Chapter 1

She changed. She was no longer that girl with the chubby figure and awkward smile. No, she was stunning. A goddess. A new girl with a new body. Her smile, so pure yet seductive. College did her good.

It's been a week since I last saw Nessa for the first in two years. The last time I saw her was during our graduation. At that time I really didn't care for her or payed her any attention. She wasn't even average back then. But now, now she's something else. No words can describe her beauty.

A week ago my best friend and room mate Niall informed me that Erica and Nessa were going to be coming over for the day. They were our old high school friends, well Niall's high school friend but according to him they were my friends too. I wasn't really into it. I wasn't very fond of Erica and I never really talked to Nessa before.

But when she came through the door I immediately wished I had. My jaw literally dropped to the floor. She was unrecognizable. Even Niall couldn't help but stare.

The day was a disaster though. Since we didn't talk during high school, she practically ignored me the whole time she was here. Erica kept on being her obnoxious self and I couldn't help but crack old jokes on her. Nessa didn't look amused at all though so after a while I decided to stop. I tried to start a conversation with her but it was awkward. She looked uninterested and I really didn't know what to do.

I've been thinking about her ever since. I don't know if it's her beauty or what. But she's stuck in my mind and she won't get out. A part of me thinks it's just because she's hot. But another part of me thinks it's because for the first time ever I was able to see a side of her I had never seen before.

She was chatty that day. She was laughing and joking around. Something I never saw her do back in high school. She was always quiet back then.

I decided not to tell Niall about it at first, but I was dying to see her again. I just wanted to talk to her. To get to know her, which is something I've never actually wanted to do before. I am currently debating wether or not I should tell him. He might be of great.

It wouldn't hurt to tell him And this is the first time I've been like this over a girl so why shouldn't I give it a try? I get up from my bed and walk over to the living room where Niall is laying on the couch watching netflix.

"Yeo Niall"

"What up Lou?" He asks looking up at me

"Can you help me out with something?" I ask sitting down on the arm of the couch. I don't really know exatcly how to tell him.

"Yea sure what is it?" He puts the movie he's watching on pause and sits up straight

"Um, I think I like Nessa" the words come out of my mouth before I can stop them

"What?!" bewilderness is clear in his voice "Wait, you like Nessa? our friend Nessa? The Nessa that came over last week?"

His eyes are huge, It seem like they were going to pop out of his head at any second

"Yea that Nessa, I don't know dude I can't stop thinking about how hot she looks now and woah, was she always that funny?" I find myself saying

"Woah dude, I've really never heard you talking like this before" Niall says looking into my eyes,, trying to see if I was lying or not

"I don't know I've never felt like this before. This usually doesn't happen to me" I honestly say. It's true. I've never felt like this or thought about a girl before. Not because I'm gay or anything but because I was always looking for that perfect girl.

"I don't know . I don't know how to explain this but I keep seeing her face over and over again and I keep having this scenarios with her in my mind and I just can't shake it" I say in frustration

"Dude you have a crush" Niall says laughing his ass off

"Don't laugh, how can I have a crush on her if I just saw her last week?" I ask in disbelieve. There has to be another reason why I keep thinking about her, maybe I just want to have sex? yeah that's probably it. But I've never really had a crush on someone before so how would I know if this is a crush or not?

"Well I don't know, you were the one that said you like her!" Niall reciprocates

"Aghhhhh!" I scream

"Dude relax you probably just want to fuck her" Niall says with a smirk

"Yeah that's what I thought too, but what if it's a crush, how do I know?" I tug at his shirt

"I don't really know dude, do you want her number? text her and see where that takes you, if by next week you're still thinking about her then you like her, if not then you just don't" Niall assures me, patting me in the back

I decide to listen to him. He's more experienced than me in this area. In my 20 years of life I had never had a girlfriend, not even a mere crush. I wasn't a virgin anymore but I didn't lose it to "the love of my life". I lost it to some random chick during the first week of college two years go.

After giving me her number I decide to text her right away. As I type the word hi into my phone my heart begins to loudly pound against my chest. Am I sick or something? I think to myself. this isn't good.

Within a few seconds Nessa replies back

"Who's this?" the message reads

"Ah, it's me Louis. I got your number from Niall, is that okay?" I type nervously. A wave of emotions rushing through me.

"Oh hi Louis" she replies

"Sorry for not talking that much when you where here" I decide to apologize first. it will lead us somewhere good I think

"It's fine, I'm used to you being quiet around me, you were the same In high school. I guess something's never change"

That message literally makes me drop my phone on the bed. If I knew I would of been like this over her then I would of definitely said something to her before.

I decide to tell her something nice. 

"You sure did change though. you look amazing"

"Is this a joke?" she replies a few minutes later

"A joke? no not at all" I reply back

"Listen Louis I have to go" she says.

Fuck! what did I do wrong? shit. I get up from my bed and start pacing around my room. should I respond back or no? what did I do wrong? is she mad at me because I texted her out of the blue? is he mad because I never really payed attention to her In high school? do I really have a crush on her?

All these thoughts are swimming around my mind, suffocating me.

I really need help with girls.