Bullshit From My Brain

Reflect

I reflect on the past while lying in bed
It's 3am and all I think about is how simple things were
My childhood has come and gone in the blink of an eye
Now I'm left in the real world where life is awful
I never used to hate myself
I never used to think I was extremely fat and ugly
I never used to fake a smile and cover my pain with lies
My thoughts are slowly slipping out of my mouth
They come out quiet and mumbled together
They are the words I wish to share but never will
The stories of laughing until my stomach hurt
Colouring entire pages bright and shiny
Then those colours fading away
Now leaving nothing but black and gray
So as these tears coat my cheeks
And I wish I was dead
I reflect on the past