Love Deprived

Three - Pain and familiar places

There has been a cast change, so before reading this chapter, if you go have a look at the cast chapter, you'll understand

It was 3am and the house was extremely quiet, Winnie had just been dropped home from the party, and not a single sound was heard, until the whole house shook of fear as the phone ran, the call Winnie had been waiting for.

"Hello this is Winnie" Winnie stutters into the phone whilst taking a seat on the sofa

The anticipation was killing her

"Winnie, I'm ..... Sorry " was all that Winnie heard come out of her father's mouth before, Winnie screams and screams

This is what she was scared of, losing something that was so important in her life, her father is never home and her brother, well who knows

Winnie knew this was the start of a very lonely life, and she had no control over how it played out

The only thing playing over Winnie's head was how won't she survive with out her mother

As Winnie, slowly picks herself up off the ground she is tripping as she stumbles for her keys, and then collects all of her strength to push open the door and slide into her car, she needed to see her mother one last time.

"DAD, DAD, please tell... Tell me it isn't true" Winnie sobs falling into her dad's arms

"Shhh Winnie, everything is going to be okay" Winnie's father shakes as he tries desperately to calm Winnie

Winnie looks to Zach and just crumbles

"Zach, please don't leave me" Winnie whispers

And Zach, looks dead at Winnie, with tears streaming down his face, "we are in this together, Winnie"

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Days had past since the death, and there had been no sigh of Winnie at school. People started to get worried, especially Carter

Carter's POV

I hadn't seen her face in what felt like weeks, her vibrant smile that shook my world

Carter Hadley was missing someone

When did I start caring so much for someone who I hardly even knew. It was something about her, she just got it. She just understood me

So I decided to go visit her

"Hello is this the Parkinson house?" I question look at the person who I'd say was around 19 that answered the door

"Yes, who are you" the voice was stern but shaky

"My name's Carter, I'm here to see Winnie"

And he just looks me straight in the eyes and sighs, "she hasn't seen day light for about 4 days, she won't even come out and eat, so good luck. First door to the right upstairs"

As I walk up the stairs I try to come up with a first line, but in the end I improvise

"Winnie" I whisper before opening the door

There she is just sitting at the end of her bed crying, so I do the bravest move I could have done and lean towards her and kiss her forehead whispering its going to be okay

And she slowly lifts up her head, and just gives me a half hearted smile

She looks so broken, it must kill her to know that her mother is gone, and she looks so valuable right now

"Carter" Winnie whispers

Her voice is so shaky

"Please take me away from here" she whispers

I didn't know what she meant, away from this house? Away from the town? We barely even know each other but yet I feel so connected to her.

"What did you have in mind"

I knew her family had moved countries so I had no idea where she was familiar with

"I want to go somewhere, where no one knows my pain, where I know no one and no one knows me" Winnie sobs

And that was it, I was taking her on a get away so she can be happy once again, were off to Venice. I had no idea what I was getting into, but before we knew it I was buying ticket for her and myself. She told me Zach had to go back to college

We leave tonight

"I'm so excited" Winnie now tries not to smile, I didn't know what I was getting into. 2 seniors going a trip overseas sounds bizarre right?

But we aren't even seeing each other. But that can't ever happen

I can't risk hurting another person who I care about. We are just friends

Once we reach customs, Winnie speaks up

"Should we be doing this?" Winnie looked confused

I knew she need to smile again and feel the joy of happiness, so yes we did

WINNIE'S POV

I knew I needed to feel happiness like I know my mother felt her whole life. she was always happy, nothing made her upset. Every now and then we had those mother daughter fights, and of course we got over it. But knowing that my own mother will never see her daughter go to her high school prom, or watch her walk down the aisle. 

But knowing this only made the precious memories I had were ones I needed to treasure. 

Suddenly this feeling of guilt come over me as we waited in the airport for our flight to be called, I need to be with my family. We need to be a family, this is what could make or break this family

"Carter, I can't do this. Take me home" I utter silently 

As we reach my street I speak up 

"Carter I think we need to stay acquaintances, especially at school. Right now the last thing I need is attention" I instantly regret once I speak up. But I need to do well, for me and for mom. 

And he just nods as I get out and he drives down the street into the distance. Almost like a memory. I know the last thing I should be doing is pushing away the people for have shown genuine care for me. But I can't think that someone like me would fit into a clinche like the ones at Northveiw  

The next day started off how I knew it would. The breakfast bench staying quiet as everyone ate, this would be when mom would throw out a "how did everyone sleep" that would always start up a conversation. But not this morning, no it was so quiet it was chilling 

As I paced back upstairs to get dress, Zach calls out to me. "hey Mala, are you going to school day?" 

and I just nod, Zach has this nickname he invented for me when I was 5. he took my middle name and shortened it. Marlisa 

Marlisa is my Grandmothers name. My mother decided to keep some tradition flowing in the family. As I pulled on high wasted black skinny legged jeans with some rips in the knees, and a big maroon knit and my white connies. Looking in the mirror I looked descent. walking out the door, at the same time throwing my hair up in a high pony tale. My dad yells out to me, "have a good day, I love you" he mutters. That something that I haven't heard come out of this mouth in a long time. those 3 words, 8 letters. I love you. 

and I just return the guesser with a smile. 

walking into the halls filled me with a uneasy memory of my first day, I made an effort to part well away from Selena's car. I didn't want people to remember me. 

this isn't my first year at Northview Preparatory, I came here as a junior, I had friends I was the definition of happiness. My best friend Tiffany Dobsen, and now she can't even remember me. She was the reason I left back then. We were best friends until she did the unthinkable. And from that day I have never forgotten the vial side of Selena De Von Tover's best friend. She is capable of much more than a pretty outfit and perfect smile

And if she doesn't remember me. I'll just make sure she gets the revenge she deserves. Even if that means taking down her friends as well

Ellis and Kyle will not go down forgotten.