What the fuck is my life?

chapster 2

i'ts a half day whoop whoop.Only 6 Hours in this hell hole and im out like micheal jackson.Woke up feeling like pure shit, ready for school to be over and i haven't even left my house yet.My dad tried to "communicate" with me wich i DO NOT DO IN THE MORNING.I just smile and nod ignoring everything he says to me like always. We got in the car i put my headphones on and listened to my girl marina and the diamonds  (numb) and closed me eyes till i got to school.Its a thursay and winterbreak is next week, so you know what that means right?..FINALS WEEK YAY,said no one ever.I sat in my first period class feeling very guilty because i made friends with this really cool/rich girl. ($_$)Who's birthday was last Saturday and she told me to get her a present and of course the dumb ass i am said "yes girl omg why wouldnt i?!",umm maybe because this bitch wears bear coats and socks made out of pomeranian puppies,but i wasnt thinking about that i just need friends. So i asked her what she wanted and she told me she would text it to me.I got home and looked at my phone.*inhales deeply *BOIIII ,THIS BITCH GOT ME FUCKED UPPPP. literal tears coming out my eyes, because 1.im happy she thinks i got money and 2.i dont got no fuckin money. Sorry i haven't even told you what it was yet because im reliving the moment of shock just explaing my shock to you.She sent me a ring,no.. not a ring you get from the claw machine at a local cici's ,A fudgen 100$ diamond ring!  like girl, i wouldn't even buy my mom something for 100$.So ya that bitch didnt get shit from me but i sent her a message saying "girl yes that is beautiful i will get it for you asap" ~lies.Ok back to today i was sitting in the class feeling guilty because she has this very class that we are spending 2 hours in! I hate being confronted because no matter how much i spend going over the conversation and the lies i will tell her in my head IT NEVER GOES AS PLANNED!
(sorry im going to sleep -like- if you want more of my loser life stories cause this day gets worse )