Boys.
The one thing that's sucks so bad, but is such a blessing.
LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT ALL THE BOYS I'VE DEALT WITH SO FAR.
First one, Beau.
Now Beau and I started dating, March of 8th grade year and lasted till November of freshman year. Our relationship was......different.
When we first started dating, I didn't really like him. I actually only talked to him because I am a petty bitch, and his ex girlfriend wanted to try me. He knows this, btw, so it's all good.
Anyways, as things went on, I did actually get feelings for him, and he was my realist relationship. He met my mom and my dad and my sister so I guess you could say we were pretty damn serious.
Eventually we just kind of fell off. It sucked. 8 months just down the drain. And we were the power couple of my class. But some things just aren't meant to be.
Next up, Daniel.
Oh la la, Daniel was something else y'all. He's an El Salvadorian papi, hm he is so yum.
Anyways, he was the first boy I talked to after the break up with Beau. When I tell you he was everything I wanted in a boyfriend, I mean just that. He was yum af, he was funny, he put up a fight, and he gave his passwords to me without me even having to ask for them.
But there was a few problems. For starters, Daniel wasn't really on the intelligent side, and my friend had the biggest crush on him.
Yikes.
So for the intelligence part, that I can't change. He just isn't smart. Sad. But the friend liking him part, when I tell you that was a trip.
Long story short, I never got to tell her that I liked him, or that he liked me, or that we talked. And they got in this big argument and he almost said "that's why I chose Debbie over you"
That would not have been good.
Needless to say, we didn't go anywhere after that argument.
And now we move onto the sophomore, Derrion.
This. This was a trip too.
Derrion was this boy (the first black boy I've ever been interested in, whoops) in the back of my theatre class that I had never said a word to before.
Randomly one week he started saying hey to me, and trying to talk to me and stuff and I was like .......okay...
And then! I was sitting in the back of my English class, minding my business, prolly on Twitter but :), and this boy named Nick said "I know someone who wants your number"
I said who. He said Derrion. I nearly fell out my chair. I said "what you mean he want my number." He said I don't know.
So I gave him my number because Nick was bugging me about it for a few days and it got annoying.
The first night Derrion had my number, he was already trying to wife me up. I said, we really need to calm down, I don't know you like that.
BUT THEN, my inner scammer came out and said, yes, play him and get some good stuff out of it.
Petty, ik.
So I allowed it, and we started talking. But I came across a problem rather quickly.
I started to like him. And I forgot all about the scamming.
And the worst part of it all, is that he kissed me, then texted me the period right after and told me he couldn't talk to me anymore.
The day after, he was talking about how he was waiting for his girlfriend to text him back.
And it hurt. Bad. Because it wasn't me.
SO NOW, we get to current times.
This boy, this one right now, he's truly something else.
He's a fuckboy, but my oh my is he charming as hell.
I know he doesn't have the best interest in mid, but there's something about him that's just draws me in, and I can't quite figure it out.
The Friday before thanksgiving break, this boy, Will, told me to add him on sc.
So I did.
He said, "we're starting a streak"
I said okay.
So we started a streak. We snapped all day everyday since that Friday, and finally on Thursday around 12 in the am, he said "text me instead" and gave me his number. We stayed up until about 2:30am just texting.
Now I had talked to this boy before, in person. He messes with me all the time. He messes with me so much that for the longest time our ENTIRE biology class INCLUDING our teacher thought we dated. But I had never talked to him like this before. The conversation we had that night, it was different.
tbh, I think this is when I started to like him, but moving on.
So we texted all day when we woke up and we snapchatted. I was looking through my stories when I saw another girl named Laila who put "when will keeps you up until 1 on FaceTime" and me being me and being flirtatious as hell, I sent it to him and said what is this? you're cheating on me?
He said," don't worry about her. she just a friend. why you think I was texting you the entire time we was on FaceTime"
Keep that in mind.
So we keep texting, and that night he facetimes me around 1. We stay on FaceTime for about an hour and I can tell he's starting to get sleepy.
side note- his sleepy voice yall...oml. I was melting. ANYWAYS.
So I ask him about his girlfriend (because at the time he had a girl) and he said "stop bringing her up, I don't want people to know about her blah blah blah" and I'm like okay but people literally think we date like that's not okay.
He says ( and I quote ) ," ight but it ain't like that. cuh we know what's up but they might not"
BASICALLY, we know we don't date, but they others can think that.
Keep that in mind also.
So fast forward to about 2 or 3 weeks ago.
I'm at my friends house telling her and another friend how I feel about him and how he's been in my phone and stuff. And one of my friends goes, "you know he talks to laila right?"
When I tell you I was shook.
I said "he literally just told me she was a friend. And he's still dating that girl. And he's in my phone. So what's the truth."
I facetimed him then, and he didn't answer. But he texted and said "I'm busy what's up."
I asked him about his girlfriend and he said they broke up. But I didn't ask about Laila, which I should have.
To make this long story shorter, he and Laila as of now, go out. Since that day, Laila actually approached me and asked if Will and I talked because that's what she was hearing around the school (remember when I said to keep in mind what he said about what people think? this is where that comes in).
She also asked if I liked him, and to spare her feelings I said no, and I never did.
Lies.
So they date now, and I'm sitting here, sad af. Because nothing ever seems to work in my favor.
If I had a dime for everytime someone told me we'd be a cute couple..I'd be rich as hell.
Too bad he's too dumb to see it.
So mora of this rant/story- boys ain't shit.
Thank you for reading this chapter, and I'll see you in the next one xx
