Dating A celebrity - Justin Bieber FanFiction

Chapter 35

Rebecca's P.O.V

I put my heart into your hands
Learn the lessons you teach
No matter when, wherever I am
You're not hard to reach
And you've given me the best gift
That I've ever known
You give me purpose everyday
You give me purpose in every way  

Oh, you are my everything
Oh, you are my everything  

 I don't know if this is wrong
Because someone else is telling me that it's wrong
But I feel this so let me just like, try my best not to let this happen again
We weren't necessarily put in the best position to make the best decisions.
You can't be hard on yourself for these were the cards that you were given
So you have to understand that these like
That's not who you are
You know you're trying to be the best you can be
But that's all you can do
If you don't give it all you got, you're only cheating yourself
Give it all you got
But if it ends up happening, it ends up happening
That's what it's that's what's happening with me
It's like God I'm giving it all I got
Sometimes I'm weak and I'm gonna do it
And it's like I'm not giving myself grace
I'm just like understanding, that's just how it is  

I just finished singing Purpose, and Justin started cheering.

"You are amazing. I really think you should come with me on tour. You would be an amazing roomy."

"I don't know Justin. I don't want to make any decisions without talking to Alice about it. You know I don't like making decisions without her. Once I talk to her, I will tell-"

I was cut off by the door opening, which was Scooter. "hey guys." He greeted.

"Hey Scooter." Justin and I both greeted back.

"Rebecca, was that your voice I heard singing? You were amazing." Scooter complimented.

"Yes, that was me. Thank you." I thanked.

"Hey, how would you feel if I became your music producer like I am with Justin?"

"I would have to think about it. Why?"

"Because. I don't think you should be hiding a beautiful voice like yours."

"I'll think about it, Scooter. Thank you for the offer."

"Okay. You're welcome Rebecca. My offer still stands too. Just let me know when you make your decision."

"Okay I will. I just have to talk to Alice first and see what she thinks."

"Okay. No problem. I should get going. I came here for my wallet I left here. I still have to run some errands for Yael still. See you guys later."

"See ya later Scooter." Justin and I said in unison.

"Okay, since we have sung a little bit and even though I love hearing you sing, you wanna go shopping or something for a little bit?" Justin asked.

I don't think he noticed but I am starting to seem a little down today. Singing just seemed to bring me back to when I wrote that song when we broke up. I was then brought out of my thoughts when Justin started to say something.

"Becky? You okay? You look like you just dozed off somewhere." Justin stated.

"Yeah. You can say that. I'm fine though. Thank you." I replied.

"You sure you are okay? You want to talk about it?"

I don't think I was able to hold it in. Every time I would sing, I can imagine coming back to that moment. 

"I wrote a song after I found out about you had cheated on me. This past half hour of singing, it brought me back to that moment writing that song. That's what I was thinking about."

"Oh. Well, can I hear the song?"

"Umm, I guess. Just keep in mind, it's a song about how I felt after finding out."

"Okay. I'm fine with that."

"Okay."

I started a beat before starting the lyrics *I know Zendaya didn't write the song IRL, but I needed a break-up song.*

Days like this I want to drive away
Pack my bags and watch your shadow fade
You chewed me up and spit me out
Like I was poison in your mouth
You took my light, you drained me down
But that was then and this is now, now look at me

This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!
Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!  

I just wanna throw my phone away
Find out who is really there for me
You ripped me off your love was cheap
Was always tearing at the seams
I fell deep, you let me down
But that was then and this is now, now look at me  

This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!
Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!  

Now look at me I'm sparkling
A firework, a dancing flame
You won't ever put me out again I'm glowin' oh whoa
So you can keep the diamond ring
It don't mean nothing anyway
In fact you can keep everything yeah, yeah except for me  

This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no!
Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no

This is the part of me, no
Away from me no
This is the part of me, me, me, me, me, me, me, me, no
Throw your sticks and your stones, throw your bombs and your blows
But you're not gonna break my soul
This is the part of me,
That you're never gonna ever take away from me, no  

I finally finished the song and put my guitar down, waiting for Justin to say something. I was going to say something, but Justin raced me to it.

"Wow." Justin said.

"Wow what?" I questioned.

"I can't believe you felt that way after you found out. The way you sang it and the way you had the lyrics play. . . It sounds extremely painful. I can't believe I made you feel that way." Justin stated. He then pulled me into a tight embrace, so I hugged him back. I was able to feel the tears falling from his hazel eyes. He was actually crying. 

I then pulled away after two minutes of the embrace. "Hey, why are you crying? I wrote this song almost two months ago." I asked.

"Just hearing you sing about how I made you feel, it made me feel what I made you feel when I cheated on you. It's a painful sight, so I will say this right now. I will never hurt you in any possible way again. Okay?"

"Okay. I'm gonna hold you to that."

"That is fine with me."

"You wanna go shopping now?"

"Sure, anything for you princess."

Aww. That nick-name is going to be the death of me. It gets me melting for him more and more every time he calls me that.

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Sorry this took forever to update. It's been a crazy week this week since it is the holidays so I haven't had much time. Next chapt. will be up soon. Thank you <3

- Kristi <3