After all those years, he still treats me really good, he's kind, he has a good smile, he goes to the church every Sunday, he literally that boyfriend who every parents wished for their daughter.
He dated someone after the second time we've broken up. It hurts knowing that someone has held him for a while. It hurts knowing someone has kissed him. It hurts knowing someone had all of his attention. Even for a while. Even it's in the past. It hurts.
What hurts me the most is because it should've been me with him since then. But i blew it.
Even tho it's in the past, it makes me feel sick that i was being so stupid back then.
I should've treated him better.
I should've love him better.
Even tho he's mine now, i still can't believe what i've done before, and i can't believe that he forgive me for what i've done. I couldn't ask for a better boyfriend.
Leaving you was the dumbest thing i've ever done. And i did it twice.
I would never want to hurt you on purpose
You don't know how big of a fool i think i am whenever i hurt you.
You're by far one of the best thing that ever happened to my life.
