Why?

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What the heck is this?! Ba't niya 'to pinost? Natuluyan na ba yung gagong yun? 

Nagulantang talaga ako sa ginawa ni Thomas. Baka ano pang sabihin nung girlfriend niya, at madamay na naman ako. Ayaw ko nang madawit sa ano mang gulo!

Sinubukan kong pakalmahin ang sarili ko. I need to calm myself or else out of anger ay may magawa akong 'di maganda 'pag nagkataon. I closed my eyes and tried to control my breathing. After a few moments nung kalmado na ako ay minulat ko na muli ang mga mata ko. Once again, tinitigan ko yung tweet ni Thom. The photo attached to his post was taken during one event a few months ago pa lang. Habang nakatitig ako sa picture naming dalawa, I noticed something with the smile that was plastered on his face. It looked real, na para bang masaya siya. 

Tangina. Ito yung lalaking minahal ko noon. 

Ngayon ko rin lang nakita 'tong picture na 'to. Back when we were still together kasi, I never saw this picture on his phone. Wait a minute, why am I having these thoughts inside my head?! Urgh! Erase them, Ara. 

Tinignan ko ang notifications ko. I saw some fans who used the hashtag #THOMARAISBACK on their tweets. Habang tinitignan ko ang mga yun, may nakita rin akong ibang gumamit ng #JERAISREAL while quinote nila yung tweet ko na may mukha ni Jeron. 

Ano ba 'to?! Agad ko ulit minessage si Jeron.

To: Jeron Teng

Magkasama ba kayo ni Thomas ngayon?

From: Jeron Teng

No. I think he's with Axel. I heard him mention the other day that he'll be with his brother this Thursday evening.

To: Jeron Teng

If that's the case, try to calm yourself down. As much as possible, don't do anything that will trigger more the situation to worsen. Okay? 

From: Jeron Teng

I will, Ara. Even though I want to give him a solid punch once he gets back here, I won't do it because you told me not to. 

I smiled at Jeron's reply. Alam kong madali rin siyang mapikon if triggered. Sana nga lang 'wag siyang mapuno kay Thomas, kundi baka ano nalang kaya ang mangyari sa kanilang dalawa 'pag nagkataon. 

Now, this is one of the consequences that I've been talking about kanina. I don't know what to do para hindi na lalong masaktan yung isa sa kanila because either way naman kasi one of them will get hurt in the end.  But as of this moment, the only thing I could give Jeron is my assurance. 

To: Jeron Teng

Where are you right now?

From: Jeron Teng

I'm still here in the nearby coffee shop in La Salle. Why?

Ba't hindi pa 'to umuuwi? Akala ko ba nakauwi na 'to, eh ang gabi gabi na rin kasi.

To: Jeron Teng

Why are you still not home? 

From: Jeron Teng

I have an exam tomorrow, and one of my classmates in that subject asked me if I want to join their group study. I was about to inform you about if when I saw your phone inside my car. 

Ayun naman pala. 

To: Jeron Teng

So, malapit ka lang pala dito? Kamusta naman ang review?