The CrissColfer Story

Apologies

A/N: Okay, two updates in two days! Woo! And next is Silly Love Songs! So obviously that will be a fun chapter :) This chapter is just a continuation of the last one, kinda a filler to be honest, but stick with us! Also- It might seem like they won't ever get together but we have a bunch of "research" & since it's based on real events we have to wait! But it's coming everntually :) Okay, comment, review, follow, favorite, etc.! Thanks! 

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So far, my goal of hanging out with other guys is going well. I’ve even been invited to their annual last day of vacation video game day! Right now I’m driving over to Cory’s actually, which is where it is taking place. So far I have hung out with Kevin and Harry once each, and one more time with Chord. I didn’t find Harry or Kevin particularly attractive, but yesterday I was walking around the mall and I saw quite a few good-looking guys. So I’m pretty sure I’m gay. But as I’ve said before, I really don’t like putting labels on things.   

          As I pull up to Cory’s I see a few other cars parked outside. When I get inside I see Harry, Mark, Chord, and Cory all  sitting in the living room, already with Xbox controllers in hand. Everyone says hello and I sit down. Already we are joking and laughing and I can tell it will be a fun afternoon.

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                           We have decided to take a pizza break and our all sitting on the couch in silence since we are eating. Cory suddenly speaks up. “Has anyone seen Chris at all during our break?”

                           We all shake our heads and he looks a little worried. “Well, I invited him as usual, but he said no, as usual. I was just wondering because we usually at least hang out once over vacation but he hasn’t so much as texted me. I’m a little worried about him.” Cory sighs.

                               Oh my god I haven’t seen Chris in almost two whole weeks, and today is the last day of our break before we go back to filming. Right now all I want to do is surprise him with Diet Coke and do our little movie marathon. I feel absolutely awful, he probably thinks I have been avoiding him this whole time. Chris has probably texted me about ten times asking to hang out or see a movie or just get coffee and I said no to play a stupid video game. I have had a great time getting to know all of these boys and do guys things like pig to pizza and watch stupid action movies that they seem to love. But I would give up all of those days to be with Chris. Now that I think about this I feel very selfish and incredibly rude. I have been avoiding him. No intentionally but still avoiding him. Before I was unsure but now I know, I’m gay. And that’s not it, I have these strong unconditional feelings for Chris. Whenever I think about him, which has been pretty much always lately, I light up and feel safe. I know with Chris I can truly be myself and I don't have to hide anything, not that I’m lying to the guys but still I feel like they only know about half of me. They guys don’t know that I love to sing and play the piano. They have know clue that I would much rather watch and cry along to Titanic then watch any other the pointless action movies that all have the same plot point to them.  

                           “Darren, dude...Did you hear what we said” Chord mocked me while shaking my arm to get me to lose train of thought. Wow how long was I sitting there spacing out about Chris?

                           “Oh yeah...What were we talking about. Chris, was it? Yeah I haven’t heard from him too much. I could call him, or go stop by his house after our games, or now even.” Two weeks ago I would have been very nervous to say that but now it is the truth, I needed to be there for Chris, he was able to clear so much time for me and now it was my turn to do the same.