Their last chapter (a Zac Levi/Tom Hiddleston story)

Cry me a river

*Ami*
When Amelia awoke again, she was lying in a bed, and had on a monitor measuring her pulse and oxygen levels.

"I am happy to see you awake again, we don't need you bedridden as well, do we ?" Luke was smiling sadly at her.

She sat up a bit to fast and felt dizzy, black spots dancing before her eyes. "Is there anything new Luke ? How did Tom take it ?"

She felt really bad about fainting, like Tom needed that scare on top of the news about Zac.

"Tom is of course very upset and you didn't exactly make it better sweetie, but Tom is strong, he is going to be okay". He was fiddling with his watch, looking at his feet.

Her head hurt badly and she asked nervously. "Luke, what about Zac ? Is there any news ? Is he...?"

"They have gotten the blood clot dissolved, but they can't say yet how much damage it has caused, he is still unconscious and still on breathing support". Luke finally looked directly at her.

She closed her eyes, shutting them as hard as possible, a single tear running down her cheek. "There are no guarantee he is coming back are there ? He could be a vegetable right ?"

"Yes, the problem is that everything is controlled through the brainstem, so they can't say which areas is effected or how badly, they don't even know if he will be able to breathe on his own". Luke looked very sad.

She got up. "I want to be with him, he needs me and he promised to always find me and be there for me, so he just have to keep that promise and come back".

A nurse showed her down to the intensive care room, and she breathed in deeply before walking in, even though he was unconscious she didn't want to be hysterical, she was sure he could hear her.

"Hi babe, you really scared me. But you know you have to come back to me right, no matter what, come back to me, because you promised to always find me and I am waiting right here". She gently stroked his hand.

It was beyond heartbreaking to see him like this, he was pale and there was tubes and cords everywhere, she didn't know if she was talking to an empty shell.

She almost didn't care what was wrong, if he would just come back to her. She would love him even if he couldn't walk or couldn't speak, yes no matter what, if she could just see he was still there.

Amelia lifted Zac's hand to her lips and kissed it lovingly. "And remember we are going to get married right ? I love you so much".

She had asked Luke to contact his father and Joel, so they could try and get through to Las Vegas, which wasn't easy due to the earthquake.

Amelia stayed by his side all the way through the night, until Luke showed up in the morning, telling her to go get some rest and he would stay with Zac.

She didn't want to leave, but Luke threatened to go get a doctor and get her sedated if she didn't go and she gave in at last.

She actually fell asleep almost immediately, even though she had thought it would be impossible for her to sleep, but her body was just exhausted.

She woke up three hours later, drenched in sweat, she had had a nightmare where she was standing in complete darkness, and she heard both Tom and Zac call out for her from opposite directions.

They both sounded like they desperately needed her and she just couldn't choose who to go to, feeling like she would be ripped apart if she didn't choose, but knowing she would have to leave the other alone without help.

She found the dream strange, because no matter that she cared deeply about Tom, she would always go to Zac if he needed her, wouldn't she ?

Amelia gave up on sleeping and got out of bed, she took a quick shower and put on clean clothes, then she walked down to Toms room. Peaking in, she saw he was awake and she walked inside.

"Morning Tom. I am so sorry I fainted yesterday. I thought I was ready to tell you. I am sorry I made it worse". She walked over and sat down next to his bed.

Han grabbed her hand gently and send her a weak smile. "It is okay Ami, that you are still standing at all speaks volumes to your incredible strength".

"I don't feel strong at all, I feel very weak and vulnerable right now. I don't know what to do without him Tom". She sighed and put her head down on the pillow next to his.

He stroked her hair softly. "You will get him back Ami, Zac is very strong and he will do anything for you. He will come back, just give him a little time".

"I hope you are right Tom, with all of my heart. I hope he will come back. I don't care if he is damaged, as long as he is here with me. Is it wrong to feel like that ? Is it selfish ?" She looked at him.

Toms intense eyes caught hers. "I don't know darling, but I know how you feel, because I feel the same".

"I better get back to Zac, I gotta be there when he wakes up. I will send Luke down if he isn't to tired". She kissed Tom on the cheek and left.

She tiptoed into Zac's room, Luke was nodding of in the chair and she put a hand on his shoulder. "Go get some sleep or maybe swing by Tom on your way, he is awake. I will take over here, thanks for watching him".

"No problem Ami, I wish there was good news". Luke got up yawning. "I think I make a quick stop in Toms room and then to bed to get a couple of hours. Just call for me if there is anything".

She spent as much time as possible by Zac's bedside. Luke had to force her to leave to get some sleep, but she never slept more than three hours and her sleep was filled with nightmares.

The only other time she left his side was to visit Tom, which she did two or three times every day.

On the third day the doctor entered, looking at her with a very serious expression. "We are going to remove the breathing support today. He should be able to breath by himself by now, if he doesn't he most likely never will".

"Okay". She heard herself say, but it felt like the words came from someone else and not from her.

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She got Luke to come, she needed someone there with her in case of the worst case scenario, they didn't tell Tom, he didn't need the stress and uncertainty.

"Are you ready ?" The doctor looked at her And she nodded, squeezing Luke's hand pretty hard.

The doctor turned of the machine and proceeded to remove the tube that had been providing his lungs with oxygen, know they could only wait.

Would he breathe ? Was there still a chance that he would come back to her ? Or was this were it all ended ?