Their last chapter (a Zac Levi/Tom Hiddleston story)

Zac is gone

*Zac*
Zac lay on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He didn't know what to do. He felt his life was over and done. He had nothing left to live for and he actually just wanted to be free.

He sighed, Amelia would have a much better life without him. She deserved so much better. She deserved someone like Tom.

But he couldn't even do anything about it, he was so pathetic that he probably couldn't even manage to take his own life, how would he do it when he couldn't walk.

He knew they were watching him closely, fearing that he would do exactly that. They were suddenly much more attentive and he got all his food served already cut, so he didn't have to get a knife.

Neither Amelia or Tom had been to visit him for two days, not since he pushed her.

He had seen how the nurses looked at him, he even heard two of them whispering about how sorry they felt for him that his fiancee spend all her time with Tom and how they suspected that they had gotten too close, the nurses had thought he was asleep.

But he wasn't angry, not with her and not with Tom, it was totally understandable and Tom would be so much better for her.

What he really hated though was the nurses feeling sorry for him, he didn't need their pity and those glances they sent him.

Zac needed to get away, to clear his head, and he managed to get himself into the wheelchair, his right arm was now strong enough for him to push it himself.

And amazingly he managed to get out of the hospital without anyone taking notice, he went through the surrounding park, down to the small lake.

He sat looking out over the water for a long time, and then he suddenly found it, the knowledge of what he had to do.

*Tom*
Tom felt like a complete jerk. Yes that was probably the best description. He was constantly plagued by guilt and he kept telling himself that it was over, that he had to stop it, but he just couldn't.

He had thought after that first kiss that it couldn't happen again, but the fact was that he was not capable of telling her no.

She was the one initiating every kiss. Well yes he tried using that as an excuse to himself and it was the truth. He hadn't started anything, but that didn't make it okay, he still felt he exploited her vulnerable situation.

Right now they were laying close together on his bed and he kept thinking that he should ask her to leave, she should go down to Zac, were she belonged, he knew she hadn't been to see him since he pushed her.

He just couldn't do that, everything within him wanted to hold her close, to protect her from anymore pain.

They only kissed, not that Tom didn't longed to do so much more, but he simply couldn't, that would be crossing the final threshold, from which there was no way back.

*Ami*
Amelia sighed, she knew this was all wrong, she knew she should stay away, but she couldn't, she needed him.

She looked up at Tom. She was snuggled in close to him, protected in his strong embrace and she couldn't help it, she stretched letting her lips find his.

As always she was the one starting the kiss, but Tom reacted instinctively and kissed her back, warm, comforting and lovingly.

Suddenly someone was clearing their throat and she look up in surprise, it was one of the nurses and she looked at her in a very accusatory way.

Tom turned his head with a sigh and send the nurse his sweetest smile. "Yes can we help you with anything".

"I was wondering if any of you know where Zac would go ? He has disappeared from his room". She looked at them with a cold glare.

Amelia flew up from the bed, her stomach a hard knot of fear. "Has Zac disappeared ? How could that happen ?"

"Well maybe he decided to find out what his fiancee is doing behind his back". The nurse answered harshly and Amelia felt a pang of guilt.

Tom snapped up, his glare was icy and his voice was angry. "Thank you. I guess you have voiced your opinion, now please leave right now".

The nurse looked surprised and a little scared and hurried out, Tom was at Amelia's side, pulling her into his arms. "Don't listen to her darling".

"But she is right Tom, I actually deserved that". She sighed and looked at the floor.
Tom bit his lip, he hated that she felt so guilty. "Come let's go look for Zac, he can't have gotten very far".

She nodded and they hurried outside, she looked at Tom. "If you walk along the road Tom, then I go through the park and be careful okay ?"

"I will, and if you need help just call for me, okay ?" He sent her a reassuring smile and they went their separate ways.

She walked through the park, feeling the panic starting to build, her stomach cramping up in fear, he wouldn't do something stupid, would he ?

When she got closer to the lake she spotted the wheelchair sitting on the brink, it was empty and she felt the panic sweep over her, running down there, afraid what she would find.