chatroom // destiel

eleven

"Hey... Cas," Dean grinned his wolfish grin. "I see you called first. I'm just fixin' up a car. How're things, buddy?"

    Cas smiled back. "Pretty good.." His eyes shifted down as he fidgeted with his hands. He looked back up at him with teary eyes.

"Cas? You okay? I swear I will drive down there if someone did something." It pained him to see Cas not be his happy self.

"I'm fine I just... I wanted to tell you that- you know what, you'd hate me. Nevermind." Castiel's voice hitched.

Dean's face softened. "Cas. You know no matter what it is, I could never hate you. It's okay, you can tell me. What is it?"

  "Dean.. I just..." Cas let out an exasperated sigh. "I don't know how to explain but I think I love you."

He couldn't mean it romantically. It had to be platonic. 'Cas would never love me in that way.'

Dean laughed but his smile didn't reach his eyes like how it always does. "Ha ha, I love you too buddy."

"No, you dumbass. I love you. I love you and the way your stupid eyes crinkle when I say something dumb, the way you laugh when we share jokes, the way you run your hand through your stupid hair when you're stressed... I think I love you." Cas looked about ready overflow with tears. Dean was speechless. Could he really?

"Cas... I-"

Cas cut him off before he could say anything. He couldn't bear to hear Dean reject him. "No, it's fine. I know I went way over the line. What was I thinking? You could have anyone you want, why would you even like me? Even if there even was a chance you'd like me, you probably wouldn't want a long distance relationship. I'm just- Ugh. Forget I said anything. This was a mistake. I'm sorry I-"

Dean interrupted him. "I love you too. I love you, I love you, I love you, you big goof. I love you in every way possible."