crazy heart (crazy harry)

what have i done !

After me and Harry got dressed we went over to nialls place.

as we sat down niall asked me to come into the kitchen because he wanted to talk to me and he asked me how me and Harry was going "it's going pretty good actually the next Moment he starts to cry and I have no idea why.

"Niall what's wrong" I hugged and started to rub his back I just let him cry into my t-shirt.

Niall's P.O.V

I've been so depressed lately it's because of what I've done I never ever wanted to go through with I.. I can't believe I've done it I had to stop I went to the pub because I was getting lots of hate on Twitter it was too much for me.

so I decided to have a drink I really didn't think it would lead to this I drank20 shots and was really wasted I saw this girl and I didn't know what I was doing I wanted to stop so bad but I couldn't fight what I was doing.

I saw the girl pass by and she saw me and smiled so I decided to talk to her I didn't know it would go so far.

I started to make out with her and she was telling me to stop but I didn't she started to cry I was hurting her she was a virgin and I took that away from her I basically raped her. I didn't want anyone to know and I didn't intend on anyone finding out.

so all I said to Emily was that "em I just .. feel so escalated (pushed away) hate on Twitter and all I don't feel appreciated anymore." which was true but that wasn't why I was so upset.

I hope she dosnt find out it will tear us all apart...