The Thought Of Kissing Razors (Fuenciado)

Somebody's Supposed To Fall In Love

~ hello guys, I didn't actually realise anyone was reading this but the two people who commented have convinced me to give this another go, it's been a while though so if this doesn't make much sense please forgive me, thank you ~

~ Jaime's POV ~

Oh you've really fucked up this time haven't you Jaime? I can't let myself think these things about Vic...he'll never feel the same way and I don't want to end up being more hurt, if that's even possible.

I didn't have a good childhood. I was bullied and even through all that I tried to remain a nice person and I always did what was best...I trusted too easily and got taken advantage of and broken by every person who was close to me. My family are okay, nothing horrible but pretty judgemental, they would rather have a handsome, popular outgoing boy for a son and I feel like I've failed them. I have only three escapes from the pain of school and family life. Bass, my friends, and I don't think I have to name the third one.

When I met the guys and joined the band, admittedly things got a lot better, having a close friend like Vic to talk to helped so much and regretfully, he knows exactly how I feel about my addiction to self-destruction. Why  man so beautiful and perfect as him would ever feel that way is beyond my comprehension. I know deep down that he maybe feel something towards me, when we brush hands I feel a spark and the look in his eyes shows he felt it too, but this is probably wishful thinking and I won't let myself get walked all over another time because I know I definitely won't make it through another time.

I need some air, I need to go think, I need to be alone.  I'm going for a walk...

Oh shit, as I leave I bump into Vic who asks where I'm going, I say I need some air and he says he wants to walk with me. Looks like I won't be getting alone time after all.