Why is life so hard? Lately I've wanted to relapse so much. But I've stopped myself. Today I almost did relapse. I held the blade against my stomach ready to drag it when I got a text from my boyfriend who I love that said 'hey baby what's up.' At first I ignored the message and thought I'd hurting myself worth it. Is it still gonna make me feel better. I thought yes until I for another text from him saying 'I love you baby'. It was then that I knew hurting myself isn't gonna make me feel better this time I put the blade away. This time without having to clean up blood. So I'm still going strong. It will be eight months since I lat self harmed on the 25th.
~Snow
P. S. Stay strong please if not for anyone else so it for yourself and your future
