Damn sorry I have been so distracted and I've gone through a lot so this will be a long update sorry. Anyways I came out as a genderfluid pansexual. Then broke up with the guy I was dating. As well as revealed the feelings I have for one of my best friends. I ended up dating them. We were together for a month. Then she broke up with me. A few days later she asked me out, I said yes. Two weeks later she broke up with me again, now she won't talk to me. I try to get the courage to talk to her but I get scared. Then I walk away sad wanting to kill myself. I ended up relapsing four times. Bit relapse is part of recovery. However, I do need to talk to them and soon cause I need them in my life
