Tears are fears wrapped in salt
And every time I cry I think of you
Not because of the pain that you cause or the work you require or even because I wish i didnt have to deal with you
And though all these things are true
Its because I know that one day any time now I will come home and find that there is no more you to be upset with
Because I know no matter how hard I try one day your thoughts will overpower my words
The scars will drown out the sound of my love
And the subtle calling of the knife will be too tempting
I know how hard it is to resist
And Im sorry
That
Unlike me
You have to go through this
Alone
Just know that next time
My mascara runs in rivers
To my lips
My fears are pouring
Down my face
And every tear
Shows how many times
Id die in your place
If only you would stop
Scaring me
