Previously on Is This Love?
Nate looked over at me and smiled. He wanted to talk.
"Kelly can we talk alone?" He asked and Carrie glared at me. I ignored her and nodded my head.
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"You look different." Nate said as he handed me a bottled water. "I, uh. I wanted to apologize." He said and I frowned.
"About what?" I asked. I honestly knew what he was talking about but I didn't want to talk about it.
He dig something out his pocket but kept it in his hand. "I should of never left you that night. It was stupid." He said and I looked anywhere but him. "Kelly, do you want to know why I left you?" He asked and I looked down.
I didn't want to know. I didn't want to hear it, I really didn't. I shrugged my shoulders and I heard him clear his throat.
I looked up to see him thinking of words to say.
"That night I was going to propose." He said bluntly. I stared at him in shock. "But I thought you didn't want me, I thought you saw me as some weakling who was upset all the time and I couldn't deal with the voice in my head that said you saw me as a freak." He said grabbing my hands in his.
I looked at our hands and then up to him. "Nate." I finally said. "I never seen you as a weakling or a freak." I said and he smiled at me. "I saw you as a brave man who always showed off his true self, I loved you Nate." I said and he smiled at me.
"I loved you too." Nate said.
I took out my hands from his and frowned. "But- you hurt me." I said and his smile disappeared. "And now you're dating Carrie?" I asked in disbelief.
"Look I was going through a rough time and Carrie was there for me, you never came back!" He shouted the last part angrily. "Linda waited for you! I waited for you!" He said and I wanted to cry.
"I thought none of you wanted me back." I said. "You were the one who left me, not the other way around Nate." I said angrily.
Nate didn't say anything but he did throw the thing in his hand on the table and walked away. I looked at him and he walked out the kitchen, I slowly looked down and saw a ring.
The ring was beautiful and it most of cost a lot of money. I held it between my fingers and a tear dropped down from my eye.
He waited for me to come back but I never did.
I set the ring down and found my way outside from the back door so no one will see me leave. I didn't want to face any of them right now, or anything soon.
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I walked through the doors of my house and jumped face first into my couch.
Just as I was about to sleep I got a call.
"Hello?" I answered into the pillow.
"Kelly?" Zak's voice came through the phone. "Where are you, we're all worried sick." He said in a worried tone and I started crying.
"I'm such a dumb ass Zak!" I cried and I heard a door shut through the phone. "Im such an idiot, I ruin everything." I cried once again.
"Are you at home?" He asked me, he seemed really worried by his shaky voice.
"Mmhm." I said into the pillow and he told me to stay put and then hung up the phone.
Moment later there was a knock on the door and I slowly got up to answer it.
"Kelly." Zak said breathlessly, I think he ran here.
I didn't say anything as Zak hugged me and shut the door.
"Everything okay." He said in my ear softly. Everything will be okay." He said again and I shook my head as I hugged him back.
"No, it won't." I said, crying again.
He sat us down on the couch and just cuddled me as I cried my eyes out. And sooner or later I was asleep.
When I woke up Zak was still there watching tv. I moved a little to see if he was sleeping but when I looked up he was smiling softly at me.
"Hey." He said moving my hair out of my face.
"Hi." I said back, still frowning. "Zak..." I was saying but he cut me off.
"Do you have depression again?" He asked me and I was taken back a little.
"What?" I asked and he sat up straighter but still held me in his arms.
"I remember after everything with your parents you were in depression for a while. Is that what's going on now?" He asked and I shook my head no.
"It's not my depression." I said and he smiled in relief. "It's about Nate." I said and he looked at me questionably.
"Nate?" He asked and I nodded my head.
"The boyfriend I had after you..." I said not wanting to finish that sentence. Zak awkwardly nodded his head and I decided to tell him everything.
"Well, his sister had cancer when I started dating him and we were going through a rough time. Kind of... Anyways, I was at home once and Nate lived with me. One day, actually on our anniversary he left somewhere and didn't come back at all. I was worried and called him, his parents, but no one answered." I said taking a deep breath. Zak rubbed circles in my back with his hand to comfort me a little.
After another deep breath I continued. "Linda, his sick sister, died today." I said, blinking away the tears. "And he called me so I rushed over there, I get in and we hug and cried together but then I see his new girlfriend. Carrie."
I can tell Zak was trying to stay calm but it was hard for him. He wanted to say something but I kept talking.
"Nate then wanted to talk alone and so we did." I said scratching my face. "The first thing he said was that he wanted to marry me." I said and Zak's face turned to me so quickly it almost broke.
"He proposed?" Zak asked and he looked kind of angry. "Why?" He asked and I shook my head.
"No! He didn't." I said frowning. "He wanted to, but he never did because he thought I saw him as weak and pathetic." I said and Zak seemed to calm down.
"Good." Zak said holding my hand. "Because your mine."
My heart stopped at his words.
I'm his?
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