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10 | Aren't You Happy?

10 | Aren't You Happy?

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J's POV

I. Am. Crying.

Right now, I feel shitty. Sam hasn't been back for 4 and a half hours. We left out to meet up with her at 4 in the evening, it's currently 8.

Where the hell is he? I hope he didn't leave with Stass. Please don't be doing anything with each other.

I grab my pink, Dr. Dre Beats, bluetooth speaker from off of the bed-side table {is that what it's called? I forgot 😂}. I turn it on and connect my phone to it.

I'm feeling sad, so I may as well play this song.

I turn the volume all the way up to the song, Better Off Dead, by one of my favorite bands -- Sleeping With Sirens.

I lock my door and scream loud. I fuck up everything in my room while singing along to the song.

Why am I doing this? It's just a guy. He's just a guy. He's like all the rest.

"I love you, though." I cry out softly, looking at a picture though.

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After that rampage and pitying myself for almost an hour, I walk into my bathroom. I take a quick shower before cleaning my room.

He's here. Yay.

I hesitantly walk down the stairs. As soon as I step foot on the floor, everyone's eyes are on me -- kinda like from that dream I had a few weeks ago.

"Stop! You're scaring me," I furrow my eyebrows and look away from them. "Fine then."

I turn around to go back upstairs until I feel somebody's arm pulling me back.

"Don't touch me!" I slap the person behind me.

Sam just stands there -- shocked. Oops, sorry.

"I'm- I didn't- it was a reflex. I-I'm so sorry." I stammer an apology.

"Why were you crying?" he asks concerned. I guess.

"I-I wasn't." I lie. I honestly don't wanna be interrogated right now.

"We all heard you," he looks at everyone else -- pointing to them.

"I wasn't crying," I try to push past him to get to the back door.

"You were."

"Move. Leave me alone, Sam." I start to get agitated.

"You were screaming and crying, dude. You're crazy." Jack teases with a chuckle.

"No I'm not." I whisper -- sadly staring at the ground, trying my best not to cry.

"You are. You're physco, just like you're brother." he laughs and scoffs.

This makes me explode, "NO I'M NOT!"

I throw my phone and flip over the table.

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" I kick in one of the pegs to the table and knocks down all the glass I can find.

I finally storm out and walks down the street to an amusement park.

"He doesn't know he's beautiful, cause no one's ever told him so.." I sob out a huge sigh, "And the demons that he hides are all he knows."

I cry softly -- rocking back and forth. What is wrong with me? I was happy.

"I was happy. What happened, Jack? Where did you go wrong?" I ask myself, hoping no one's heard that.