Bad Girl (On-going)

Chapter 12: (Guilt-tripped)

I walked through the park in a hazy afternoon, with earphones in both sides of my ears.

(NP: Demons by Imagine Dragons)

~~~When the days are cold

And the cards all fold

And the saints we see

Are all made of gold

When your dreams all fail

And the ones we hail

Are the worst of all

And the blood¡¯s run stale

I wanna hide the truth

I wanna shelter you

But with the beast inside

There¡¯s nowhere we can hide

No matter what we breed

We still are made of greed

This is my kingdom come

This is my kingdom come

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It¡¯s where my demons hide

It¡¯s where my demons hide

Don¡¯t get too close

It¡¯s dark inside

It¡¯s where my demons hide

It¡¯s where my demons hide~~~

(AN: Who likes the song? Comment down and Vote to make me smile and to keep me going. Love yeah!)

As I moved my head from side to side to seek for a place where I could stay, I saw an acceptable location where it was just right for me to sit and chill out. I sat down there while I leaned my left arm to the side of the bleacher.

I closed my eyes and just let myself drown to the message of the song. No matter what we breed, we still are made of greed. It made me realize that no matter how we try to be good, we always end up being bad and even getting worse. With the people around us , who never stop hurting us, making us cry, and making us end our lives, we can never become better. They are the ones who keep on pushing us to do the worst things in life. We learn to get back until we never know that we, ourselves, are slowly turning into demons. I believe that inside all of us, there is a demon who is hiding. It just takes something to provoke it. And once it is provoked, it comes out. Then it will be hard to control.

Me? I chose to become like this. All my loved ones left me and chose to hurt me, but that doesn't matter because I know to myself that I have become stronger. If I would be good now, someone would hurt me again. But if I won't, no one could ever hurt me. So it's better to be like this for my own sake. There is no other person that can ever protect me but myself.

I sighed as the song faded out and another song started. I opened my eyes to look around me. I was so moved by the song that I forgot to look at the beautiful place I am in. People were so happy with their families, loved ones, and friends. As I watched them, my mind couldn't stop thinking that everything has an expiration. Even happiness. These people are happy now but they will have a long face tomorrow. It's better not to assume for a happy life because everybody who assumed had ended up getting hurt.

I sighed. As if on cue, the wind blew my face. It felt refreshing. The air was cool and not dusty.

When I heard my stomach whine, I immediately stood up and went to the nearest cafeteria. It's 10:15 in the morning and I had already felt hungry. It seemed that the two pieces of wheat bread I had this morning didn't even take hold on my stomach until lunch.