Never Let You Go (An A7X Ft. BVB Fanfic)(ON HOLD)

~CHAPTER 12: Loose it again~

I woke up to the sound of beeping that terribly annoyed me. The smell in the air, wasn't the one I was expecting to smell. It's like a weird disinfectant spray surrounding the room.

Wait where was I?

I started to move, but it seems like my whole body turned numb. I can't feel anything either, like literally. Wait, Am I dead?!

But why can't I see TheLight. Yes that's right, TheLight. You know those rumors when you're dead you'll practically see the light, a brightly white colored light that you feel surrounded to, and honestly I don't see anything.

I tried moving my finger, but it was no use, I feel like I'm being carried down by a bunch of cement on top of me. Its so weird being like this. Or should I say, my inexperienced journey.... to the center of the Earth. Where did that come from?

Then again, the beeping noise tots annoy me, like I wanna get up and bit the shit out of that thing that woke me from my slumber. I heard shuffling noises from what I could tell, was inside a room-- where I am in it too.

Noises...Noises... Yes. Ugh!

"S-st-stop the noise." I mumbled, hearing myself say a word feels like I'm not dead, like I still lived but not dead. Wait, am I making sense?

I don't really think I feel something, or even had said those words. But honestly, I am in dip shit if that was the case.

ANONYMOUS POV

Kirby still layed lump on her room on a hospital bed. Everyone seems to be worried about her, like worried-worried. But only a few could get in, a family member to be exact. And the only family member there was Matt. 

He sat on a stool beside Kirby's bed, his hands clasped together on his face. He looked terrible by the day, visible circles were on his eyes, and it sure looked like he hadn't eaten for days. 

Not one could comfort him at this very moment, he was a destruction.

"S-st-stop the noise." At first, Matt didn't stir but the slight movement on the sheet quirked his head up to Kirby. She was... let's just say, sleeping on the soft matress that was called hospital bed. 

Matt gripped her hands, rubbing his thumb on her forearm. He raised it just near his lips and kissed it. 

She still hasn't woken up.

"Please Kirby..... Wake...Up..." Matt's voice was hoarse, he had been crying. That's for sure. "I never want to lose you, Kitty." He whispered.

He let his head fall to their entwined hands, well actually Matt was gripping her and Kirby wasn't. He closed his eyes, a tear escaping his eyes. "I need you, Kitty. Wake up.."

ANDY'S POV

All of us both the three bandmembers, my mates, Matt's and Kirby's. We waited out the room, surely that freakin nurse won't let us in. And let me tell you, her annoying squeeky voice made me want to stranggle the life out of her. Okay, so maybe it's too much, but seriously? "You can't get in. She doesn't need more stress to handle right now. It's best if a family member could accompany her.." That's what she said, and guess what, she just walked on us like we weren't even persons!  

That freaking bitch!

"You think she's alright?"

"No shit, smartpants!"

"Whatever dude."

"Guys, just stop for one second alright?" Dylan, I think that was his name scolded everyone who started to have a verbal babbling. I on the other hand sat there, not even thinking about everyone but her.

I mean, I miss her. Like so freakin much! I don't want to lose her again. Yeah, I admit, I was a dick back then. But hell, I want to punish myself for doing that to her.

I want to make her happy. Be happy with me, left all the past we had. Just her and Me. 

I wanted that, right?

"Hey dude, the guys and I are going to get something to eat, wanna come with us?" Ashley asked me, his face was concerned. Concerned for her, I guess.

I shook my head no. "I'll stay." I said softly. 

"Well you should do at least eat, bro. You hadn't been eating properly since--since this happened." He wouldn't even want to say it out loud, or maybe in front of me how many days had been Kirby still on that freakin room.

"I don't know man, I'm not hungry." I said stubbornly. As far as I knew, I'm not hungry. Heck I even want to hurl right now. 

"Fine. But at least let us buy you something." Ashley insisted. "Fine." I grumbled.

Minutes gone by to hours and still there wasn't any news from her. The guys had been back and brought a what looked like a tuna sandwhich. I couldn't care less what food they'd brought for me.

I wasn't even feeling hungry.

But their annoying persistent led me to eat the friggin food.

It tasted weird at first munch. Probably because my mouth didn't want to eat or maybe because of the alcohol I took from when the incident happen.

God i hate myself so badly.

If I had lost her, I'm not even sure if I could make it out okay. I'd die.

All I want right now was for her to awaken and maybe just maybe forgive and all this things from the past would be long forgotten.

My hands were both pressed to my face. My face laid low hiding behind my hands. Everyone was seated somewhere beside me, murmuring softly against themselves.

I on the otherhand blacked out every noise I came contact with.

My thoughts were to her and only her.

"Hey man..you should probably go home and take a shower.." I heard Jake said obviously talking to me.

But I wasn't in the mood to go elsewhere. Especially home.
"I'll stay here."

With that I went slumping back on my seat.

And as if some miracle could ever happen to me, Matt bursted out from the room Kirby was in.

"She's finally awake!"

a/n   i had just updated this chapter! yay for me lol -x