Free Falling

Chapter 2

            What will I do in the meantime? I obviously will be thinking about the situation forever. How could he date me, but like someone else more? Guys, right. I'm still hurting. It's only been a week but it feels like an eternity. He has moved on and has a girlfriend, I have food. Food is nice and all but come on guys, let's be real. I don't want anyone other than him. John M. Baker. So he's had me hooked for two years as I've said before. I never really had him hooked I guess. Look at the situation we are in. We don't even talk. He is so perfect. He's so strong and athletic. He's so hot and girls can't resist him. He plays 3 sports. Of course girls are going to be all over him. He just can't keep his eyes set on one person. That's the one thing. The one thing that he can't do. I think about him all the time and I try to find out why it wouldn't have worked. Was that why? Cause he's perfect and I'm... not? People say I think he's perfect because of the love I still hold for him. I think they're just blind. That or they aren't looking deep enough. Just, how could they not notice everything I do? It's pretty obvious that he's hot, athletic, and caring. Definitely funny. He's also disaster and that's why this is dwelling at me. Maybe I should let go. Or give him another chance. Maybe letting go is the smart thing to do. Maybe giving another chance is what will make me happy. What if it just hurts me more. He might not even like me back I just a don't know. It's hard to express myself anymore. It went from me being so happy that the finest words couldn't define how I felt, to me feeling so low that nothing compares. I try to keep my head up. Everyone tells me in the end it will be okay. Just, how do you know? Exactly, you don't know so why would you say it. Maybe in a few months everything will be fine like they say, or maybe it will take a turn for the worst. The only thing that I do know for now is how I feel. Im sad, mad, overthinking, I just feel the need to give up.