Run And Cry

Prologue

"NO!" I scream as i feel my feet dragged on the wooden floor, attempting to dig my claws to resist and stay put, scratching it with me. All the way with me.

"MOM! NO! PLEASE I'M BEGGING YOU." I cry out and look up to her for mercy, tears running down my sweated face. She's ignoring me with a resting poker face, dragging me around.Running out of breath, I suddenly stopped fighting it, the only thing that i could hear is the fast pouding of my heart, so loud that i feel like it could rip my chest and come out. I knew she was stronger than me, i knew i coudn't help but give up and i'm thrown on the full grass , the cold air sending shivers down my bare back, i hide my body with my dirty hands.

I close my eyes, i knew it. I knew this day would come, i just choose not to run, i thought running was for cowards,when the only coward here is me.

"You actually brought her". Oh, for the Moon's sake.

I open my eyes and stare at the witch's face, Bavmorda.

I couldn't even glare, i had no energy. She's standing there as her usual self, long braided black hair, that matches the color of her eyes, she was beautiful, every day, just not today. Mom standing right behind her avoiding my eyes.

"Why?" My voice came out shaking, as a whisper.

"You'll understand later, Amarok." Bavmorda, the woman that was about to take all of me and fade it away, the witch responds.

"No. Do not call me that. I will not be an Amarok after what? a few hours ? minutes? seconds maybe? I'll just be Ulva, an ex she wolf now broke human girl. Maybe i'll leave Fairfag too, who will trust humans in here anyway? No one.I-"

"You will not be human, you'll be yourself , an Amarok wolf ." My mom finally adress a sentence, eyes empty, voice sounding like a ghost.

And God , i wish she didn't speak because her words just raised my anger to it's highest.

"What ? HOW ? if i'll stay an Amarok what the use of all of this ? "

Bavmorda smiles. "You'll just not be able to shift anymore, as an Amarok you will not resist shifting , result : they'll caught you".

My eyes widening at her , i shake my head. "You cannot do this, just kill me, please. Please i'm begging you, just let me be a human, i can leave town. I'll find another thing to do with my life, i'll go to the Orphan of humans, i'll take care of myself i pro-" Her hand suddenly is on my head, the air around us start to get cold, with one last stare , my mom left into the woods.

It was happening.

I shake my head for her to let go.

"I've done this since i can remember child. It's gonna be alright. "

"It will not." It's the last thing i said and it strangely came out softly.

Then, she begun. "I call on Genodjinas. I call on Wotadjina to help me get this spell right like fluent water , i call on Airodjina to help me get this spell right like the good energy of the air, i call on Fayadjina to help me get this spell right like the beauty of the red flames, i call on Erthadjina to help me get this spell right like the sweet scent of the green grass and wet dirt, i call on Genodjinas, mothers of elements, i call on you to help me protect this child, this amarokita from the cursed human's spirit. Take her shape, her true honorable shape, my mothers, take it , for the Greatest ! for the greatest !"

Right at that moment, i knew that it was happening for real, like few minutes before, i felt like my heart and my soul are slowly but painfully coming out of my body, like someone was ripping my chest off my body, it hurt, it hurt so bad. It was going away, i could feel my wolf fading away, howling for me to stick with it, it was the first and the last time that i felt as if my wolf was not really me, i could feel every inch of my body hurting, like the first time i shifted. And i won't be doing it again, never. Please make it stop, please make it stop, Oh God. I felt imaginary claws digging in my head, I let out a piercing long howl.