It's crazy you know? That you could want nothing else but to die, and be gone. But then you meet someone. Someone who reminds you what happy is. And then all of a sudden you go from wanting to die every single day to being happy with just a few rough patches. I never got that. I hated everything, everyone, just all of it. Then I met him and at first I thought it would be nothing. I thought we would never talk again after that first time, but we did. I loved him. Hell, I still do. I probably always will. For many reasons, he was kind, caring, and just amazing. He wasn't my type. Honestly he was the exact opposite of my type. But i still love him with ever single ounce of me. How does that work? How do you connect with someone who is like no one you've ever wanted before? How do you fall in love with someone who you never even expected to talk too? But i guess my biggest question is how do you get over it? When they leave? How do you stop crying yourself to sleep and avoiding mirrors because every time you see yourself you remember you are to blame for it? How do you wake up and act like you never fucking loved them when in fact you did more than anything and still do? I know it's hard, because i've tried so many times. But how do you do it? How do you get better?
