I don't wanna love

Realization

My name is Trinity. And I'm depressed.

No, I'm not one of those typical teenaged bitches who says they're depressed because they didn't get the phone that they wanted.

I'm clinically depressed.

It attacks me whenever and I have no idea when or how to control it.

It only got worse after what Zak did.

One month later, and I still haven't gotten over him yet. Well, really we've only been dating for 2 months, but back then I was new to the whole dating thing.

I was in 7th grade, for Petes sake.

Anyway, I was at my locker when my friend Alivia walked up to my locker.

"You remember Zak, right?"

I slowly turn my head to look at her with the "really?" face and said "Naaaaaaaaaaawwwwwww, I don't remember him. Could you remind me again?" While slamming my locker shut at the word "don't."

Alivia recognized the sarcasm and continued. "Well, he's been telling the group that you broke up with him for no reason and he's calling you a bitch and stuff."

My eyes filled with anger.

You see, Zak doesn't go to the same school. Actually, he isn't even in the same country.

He lives in Australia.

Yes, we were online dating. Now shut the fuck up.

There's this app that I met him on called Kik. I'm sure you've heard of it. Some of you probably even have it.

Well, I made a group of online friends on Kik. I could go to them for everything.

And now Zak's telling them I'm a bitch for "dumping him."

And I deleted the app after the last text he sent, so I couldn't do anything about it.

"fffffffffffffFFFFFFFFFFFUCK!!!"

I storm to my next class.

As I'm making my way down town, walking fast, faces past and I'm homebound, I realize something.

Zak's a two faced back stabbing mother fucking bitch.

Who the hell dates someone named Jewel? I mean, just from the name I can tell she's the exact oposite of me.

But I also realize something else.

I'm over him.