Zalfie: Break-Up

Chapter 5: Fresh Start

After a miserable Christmas, I decided to make a fresh start and get over him and move on. I seriously need to get on with my life because now all I do is stay in and and binge watch so many series on Netflix. I haven't made a YouTube video in ages, well it was when I ended Vlogmas early. Everyone had gone crazy and I apologised on every social media I had. People seemed to understand. Though I still haven't told them that me and Alfie have broken up. I knew actually how they would react.
I hadn't heard anything from Alfie and he hasn't uploaded any videos. I hadn't spoken to Poppy either. Everyday I was worrying what they might be saying about me and what Alfie had said to them. I was praying that he didn't twist the story and say he was the victim, I couldn't bear that. And I didn't have the energy to defend myself at this point.

On a dreary morning I woke up feeling hopeful and optimistic. I had a spring in my step and I was ready for anything. This amount of motivation and determination was new and exciting, I couldn't waste it lying about. I decided to film a video about what happened with me and Alfie. I didn't both doing my makeup because I knew I was going to cry. So I set up my lights, my tripod and my camera and told my viewers what had happened. I usually don't tell my viewers something as personal as this but this is the only way I could get across how I was feeling and the only way I could do it was through a video. I knew if I carried on how I was, people would be asking a lot of questions about Alfie. And his viewers would be asking him. So I did us both a favour and told the world we had broken up.
After filming the video I did feel emotional but I felt like a weight had been lifted I felt better that I told someone even though I hadn't uploaded it yet.
I edited it as fast as I could but when I was done I could not bring myself to upload it. It seemed that something was holding me back. The mouse hovered over the upload button. A slowly closed my eyes and pressed it...

Minutes after uploading I got hundreds upon hundreds of tweets of 'hope you're ok' and 'can't believe Zalfie are over'. Many of the tweets and comments were nice but I saw some horrible ones so I decided to close my laptop and be free from that negativity.
A couple of hours after I got a call from Joe (my brother) "Zoe are you alright? Why didn't you tell me?" He said. I sat and talked to him for about and hour. Then I heard the buzzer for the gate. I told Joe I would call him back later. I left my phone on the sofa and went to see who was here.
It was Alfie. My heart started pounding. He slowly pulled in into the driveway and got out of his car. My hands got so sweaty, I didn't know where to put myself. Was he angry because of the video? Or wanting to talk. I finally opened the door.
"Can we talk?" Alfie asked. I nodded and let him in...