Daddy J ( Jared Leto's joker story)

Miss Her Old Self

I'm the worse person in the world. I let a guy kill my son. I don't really deserve life. I will a million times prefer to give my life to my son. I wish it was possible, yeah Joker would be hurt but he would have his son.

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*Joker POV*

I have never seen Bella so sad. Angry or upset. She is literally insane. More than me. She talks to herself more times than I do.

It worries me. I don't want to put her in a crazy home. I'm in the same place of insanity and she keeps me sane. If she goes ill be really sad, I won't make her go. I belong there also.

I know that, but I hate it there. When I hate a place there's no one that will make me be there, I'll escape, leave or go completely insane. Back to Bella, she is completely different since the baby got killed. She's depressed and she pushes me away. I want to comfort her but as soon as I ask her to tell me anything she will push me away.

Saying nothing is wrong, I see right through her I know she is dying inside. Hey, I'm the same way but I'm being strong for her. When I found out my baby was dead I cried like a little bitch. I killed anyone that was responsible for the death. I never got to see my baby.

I made sure those assholes didn't see the light ever again. That's what happens when someone does something bad to the person I love. I don't talk shit out. Im a man of action. Now you see why I was trying to keep her locked in the house?.

I shouldn't have left her alone though. I sometimes feel like it was my fault for leaving her alone. That quickly leaves my mind because I know I shouldn't blame myself for it. If I can ill do so many things differently. Like not trust that asshole at all.

I look at Bella, shes asleep. Which she doesn't do much of it. She doesn't do much of anything anymore. She doesn't eat, sleep, talk. She does shower and walk around the house.

That's good enough for her I just wish she would eat and sleep more, I want my lover back. I miss her old self. I miss when we would cuddle, now she doesn't even want me to look at her. She does want me to keep her company but not look, touch or talk to her. That really hurts me.

All I want to do is cuddle her. Talk to her about my fucked up day. Look at how beautiful she is. She doesn't want that at all. I sigh and play with my fingers thinking of how happy she was.

She always had the biggest smile on her face. Now she has a permanent frown on her face. She always cuddled me. Now she doesn't touch me at all. She used to eat junk food with me.

Now she doesn't eat at all. I'm just really sad. I miss my old Bella. Is it wasn't for that asshole. She still would have been happy.

Hope you liked this chapter...  I'm excited for what's to come.