nights ☆ nct dream

scared.

Donghyuck's POV
(ya'll wondering where he is)

It's been a week since Jeno hyung died. Me and Jaemin were affected the most, to be honest. He locks himself inside his room, but, me? I didn't sleep, nor eat.

You might be saying that I'm over reacting right now.

But, I can't help it.

I have a phobia of deaths.

I mean, can you just imagine not living? Not being able to talk to your friends, not able to do anything you want, our vision that is full of darkness right when we die, and people crying for you just because you're dead.

I developed this fear when Jaemin's mother died.

Jaemin didn't really knew about her, because her mother is always visiting my parents because of some deed that I don't know.

Hearing about death makes me feel lifeless.

Like I'm the one who died.

And I don't want to experience that myself.

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Jaemin's POV

"Jaemin-ah." Mark hyung went inside my room.

I looked at him, even though I know that my eyes are probably so swollen from crying.

"You should go to Jeno's funeral." He said, patting my back.

I don't even have the strength to talk right now.

"Please, Jeno wouldn't like it if you act like this."

He's right.

But I can't control my emotions.

"I can't go, because my mother said that people are dissapointed at me, because I couldn't protect you guys." He smiled slightly.

"So please, for the sake of everyone else, you should go."

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a/n: i honestly have a fear of deaths too, i cry whenever i think about it, sometimes panic but it's not that bad

i actually cried when i wrote the scene wherein jeno died tbh

okay, so haechan my bro has been revealed!!!

hint: mark and haechan knows something... ;)