Sex Buddies

Chapter 11

 Roger's P.O.V.

Mishea started to tap her foot impatiently. Her eyes narrow at me in annoyance but i wasn't sure where to start. I'M already on thin ice with my little girl.  She has my stubbornness plus her mothers hard edge when pissed off.

 I start to think fast. I'm just amazed at how she's grown. The pride in my heart is great fro my daughter. She's looks like her mother but she has my eyes. It never set right with me how I left but it was short notice, it was for her protection. I didn't want to leave I never wanted to leave my family but it's somethings she just doesn't know yet. Nor do I think she will understand. Not just yet..

 "It's not I wanted to leave. I want you to know, what happened between your mother and I had nothing to do with you. We were having disagreements about.. somethings. It was best for me to move out." I paused I almost slipped up. "I still love your mother. I still love you and your brother."

 When she didn't respond I kept going. "But the way i just completely disappeared was wrong. I know you feel like i abandoned you. But i kept up with you though everything. I knew every major piece of news, every report card, even any hobbies you were trying."

That's when i could see the walls starting to fall, her eyes watered she angrily wiped them away. In that moment I realized how i had hurt her.

Mishea's POV

I listened to every word soaking them in like a sponge. I could hear his voice trying his best to get through to his little girl. That little girl died a long time ago.

"So you think that excuses everything? I came home from school like it was a normal day. You were just gone vanished into thin air. Not one word until over a year later. Mom was too hurt to ever talk about it. I was left in the fucking dark." There was no return at this point my anger fueled my every word. I looked him dead in the eye.

 "Think keeping up is enough? I needed you to be there. I wanted you to be there, you weren't. Then you waltz back in like it never happened. You expect me to give go back to how things used to be? Like you didn't just leave me behind like Aaron did! Such a fucking way to show you love and care. Yeah you kept tabs, but did you know about the depression you caused me? No? I just couldn't fathom why a father would just leave."  I get up and start to pace.

 "When i started those hobbies who did you think i wanted next to me to help me figure it out? Do you really think keeping up with whats on my school record is going to replace the fact when i did those things you were even there. Mom couldn't be. She was too busy working because you left everything for her to handle!" That's when i realize I've been crying. Roger tried to take a step toward me i stepped back immediately.

" Don't you fucking touch me! You lost the right to call yourself my father when you left. As far as I'm concerned my father died the day he disappeared. I'm leaving." I get up to leave but Matt grabs me and aaron blocked the door. i tried to get loose but he held my tight i lost the will to fight and started to cry into his chest.  

 I can feel everyone watching me, I wish the floor would swallow me at that very moment. I ahte crying in front of people it made me feel weak, I felt weak and fragile. I loathed, but my broken heart screamed over my pride I've held those thought to my self for so long. i feels like i had been hit by a car just waiting for resuce, the weight felt like it would crush me.

Matt whispered soothing words into my ear. He rubbed my back trying to get me to calm down. Telling me over and over again that its going to be okay. I feel another hand on my back. I turn to see my mom. I hug her too. I start to cool it. I take a deep breathe. "Lets get this over with. " i turn to see my dad crying. Acually crying.

 I hated how I don't want to see him hurt.

*FLASHBACK*

Mom forced a smile. "He wont be home tonight. Matt are you staying for dinner tonight?" She hurriedly brushed passed the answer. Matt told her he'd be going home for dinner tonight.

Once matt left i cleaned up our dishes and trash. My mom calls me upstairs to her room. "Yeah mama?" I sit on her bed. We start to have our normal how was your day what did you learn conversation.

I glance around and start to notice dad's colons aren't on the dresser. I look a little closer and i see all his little pictures and stuff wasn't there either. My mom sees that I've started to see things missing. "Where is all of dad's stuff?"

She sighs softly. "You're father was suppose to talk to you before it happened but he left." I start to laugh, she must be joking. GShe really had me going for a minute. "Nice one mom. Where's dad seriously?"

She frowned. Her face didn't give away any signs of playfulness. my smile slowly fades from my face. I get up and open the closet. i ripped the draws open. All empty. I go to his office room all of his things were gone. Completely cleaned out. My heart felt like it shattered in pieces. i fell to my knees and cried.

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~Roziey