Stay By My Side

Chapter Seven

Stiles POV.

I got to my apartment after a long day and just fell face forward on my bed. Life has been pretty hectic this week and I've just been stressing out about a lot of things. And one of them being my date with Derek tomorrow, which I'm really nervous about. I've only dated once in high school and let's say that they only dated to humiliate me in front of the entire school. Since then I have found it hard to trust people but with Derek it feels different and I hope its true. Rosa gave me a day off tomorrow so I can prepare for my date but I really didn't think that was necessary. I mean I know its Friday but they will still be busy. Derek said that he'd pick me up at seven and dress up in something casual yet fancy. I really don't know what he has planned for our date but I can't wait to see. I just hope that I won't get hurt this time because I don't think that I can handle it.
I reluctantly got up from my bed and headed to the shower and after I was done I ate my dinner in complete silence since I was alone. I sighed as I laid in my bed closing my eyes. I wanna fall asleep but I'm not sleepy at all. I hate it when this happens because I end up playing with my thoughts and it goes in all the wrong places. I start to over think things and end up having a mental breakdown. I wonder who my parents are and that they ever think about me. Who am I kidding? Why would they even think about me, when they didn't even want me? I wonder what it would be like growing up with having mom and dad who love me unconditionally. I would have had a very different childhood. I would have my own toys and wouldn't have to look at other kids playing with their new toys from a far. I mean I had my toys but they were all donated and already used. We would sit in line and wait for the owners of the orphanage to bring them. There used to be huge bags and we all used to hurry and run over to it to pick out the toys that looked newest and cool. We all had to wear clothes of other kids that their parents had donated and only got new clothes for Christmas and it wasn't even of our choice. Many other orphan kids were adopted and I never appealed to any parents that came. I still remember how I tried to make good impression to those parents who came for adoption but they all smiled and went to babies section. The older we got the less chance there was of us getting adopted. I had one best friend in that hell of an orphanage though, he was always there for me and we used to do everything together. His name was Jackson and he was really cool. When other kids used to bully me he always stuck up for me and he used to share his toys too. And one day he came crying to me looking sad and when I asked him why he was crying.
He told me that he got adopted, I smacked him in the head and told him that was a good thing and that he should be happy. He told me that he was sad because he wouldn't get to see me anymore, that they were moving him to UK. I was happy that he finally got some real family but was sad that the only friend I had there would be gone. We both cried that day but eventually he had to go and he made a promise that one day he would come back. Its been years now and I think that he has forgotten about me. After that I never thought that I would have another best friend but then I met Scott. We became like brothers and he saved me from falling deeper into depression than I already was. I was knocked out from my thoughts when my phone vibrated. I opened to see that Derek had sent me a message and opened it.

Can't wait for our date tomorrow. Can't stop thinking about it. Anyway, just wanted to say goodnight. XX

It read. That brought a smile to my face and I quickly replied back.

I can't stop thinking about it too...and goodnight :) xx

I hit the sent button and plugged it to the charger and then fell asleep shortly.

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I'm so sorry guys I didn't plan to end this chapter here but after publishing half of what I had written just disappeared and I didn't save it in any other drafts so please hope this is okay. I will post another chapter to make it up to you on Sunday where I will update both this and my other one shot book that I have.
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