why do i put my heart into everything i do
i get upset when people hurt me
but in the end i know it's all my fault
i can cry all i want but
it doesn't change anything
in the end
i'm the asshole in every situation
i'm the person you want to avoid
i'm the friend nobody likes
i just don't know how to be likeable
i try to reach out and talk to other people but i don't know how to. i don't think i'm doing it right.
i don't do mean things on purpose. i really don't. i don't know what's bad and what's not. i'll do things that i think are normal things but apparently. not?
they always say i'm suffocating, manipulative, dramatic, sullen, dangerous, a bad influence.
if i'm that bad for everyone then what do i do?
i just want to connect with people.
if i'm truly so horrible,
if i truly do make people's lives worse without even realizing it,
if i truly am manipulative and suffocating,
then it's better off im not around others at all
because it's pretty obvious i don't know what i'm doing
