STATIC.

04、 stuck

❝she showed no emotion,
except despair,
until she met him.❞

— ☆

"unexpected meetings soon turned into planned outings. every so often, they would meet up at a nearby cafe and sit down for hours on end talking about who knows what. she was happy."

"even though t h e y were all around her, it felt as if it was only them together for her."

"but in all honesty, that didn't matter. what mattered was the fact that, she, herself, began seeing other things but s t a t i c. blues, purples, oranges... any other color you could name. she loved it. she cherished every single moment with him. even until the last goodbye."

"but, like everything, it only lasted for a short time."

"he soon had to go to america for a concert with his band. she was upset, but she hid it."

"just like every other emotion, she crossed it out and left it in the back of her dark mind. but we all know, they eventually, if something is held in for too long, it becomes difficult to continue doing so, in this case emotions, and sometimes it becomes too full for it to handle, and, then,

it explodes."

"she was a mess. she cried, she screamed, she tried to break free on her own, but there was no use. the barrier he once broke, built up again, and she was trapped. stuck."

"there was no escape from t h e m. they would crowd around her until she just wanted to leave. she hated herself. she felt like everyone was staring at her. she felt like someone was watching her, even if she was alone."

"and that's what we know as a n x i e t y."

"a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease about something with an uncertain outcome."

"but for her, it wasn't a feeling."

"it was her l i f e s t y l e"

"and soon enough, the s t a t i c that was once gone, came back again."

end of chapter 4

merry christmas by the way(: