Confessions

Feelings~ Relationships

I don't want to be here, I can't deal with everyone.

I hate people;

And I hate being in public.

It's like I'm ashamed to show my face'

But I have to,

And the one person who I need to talk to isn't here.

I need him here.

I want him here,

And I need him to understand how I'm feeling.

I can't even smile anymore without it being a difficult

And he's the only one that can break through my walls that i've set up perfectly.

I love him.

He makes me feel better.

He's my world and I'm his world.

I want to be in his arms and to be safe in them.

I don't want to be here, in this world;

But I'm staying because I know it'll just hurt me even more to go.

But what about running away?

That seems like a good idea.

But where would I go?

How would I get there?

Easy, the one place where I know I won't be judged and how?

Well, that's easy too.

Just walk, walk and never look back.

That's what Half of me wants but the other half?

It wants to stay but it knows it's making me unhappy staying.

Why can't I just be normal?

Having to talk to someone I barely know is hard,

But I do it.

I need to do it;

Because if I didn't people would woory about me,

And I don't want them to stress out over me when I know they have their own ploblems.

I want someone to save me.

People hurt me.

If I'm alone and far away,

I won't be happy but I won't be sad;

I'll be away from people I don't want to be around,

But i'll be away from the people I love.

Big dillemma there.

I hate when people see me cry but they did today.

I'm gonna go crazy if I don't get out of here.

I want to leave;

And I will keep repeating it.

I want to leave.

I want to leave.

I want to leave.

I have to get out and leave all my emotions behind.

Why can't we just turn off all of our emotions?

That would be great.

I would have turned my emotions off a while ago,

And I bet a lot of other people would have too.

And I could turn them on whenever I wanted too,

But wouldn't I be bombarded by the emotions I hid off?

I don't know.

That's probably the most scariest thing of that idea;

Having all those emotions come at you all at once.