Confessions

Feeling~ Thoughts

I'm doing the best I can.

I want life to be good for me,

But will that happen?

I wonder what my future will be?

I want it to at least be somewhat happy.

But I'm an inconclusive person,

Going through life not knowing what I want to do;

But sometimes I do know what I want,

I just don’t know how to get it.

For now ill just have to do what life throws at me,

Even if it’s quite the opposite.

What do I want?

I want to graduate.

I want to get out of this hellhole that i'm in.

I want to move and get out of this place.

I want a lasting relationship.

I want life to be better.

I want all this but i dont know how.

For now ill just take my time in life,

Going through it as best I can.

If I can.

But i don't know if I can.

What if I change my mind?

What if I keep changing my mind?

But that’s human nature I guess.

My thoughts are so jumbled,

But all I have to do is keep an objective in my mind

Even if it gets too hard to.

This part of life is just the beginning;

I have to remember that

Even when at times I want to give up.

I have to remember that this is just the beginning.

If I remember that will I make it through life?

I hope and wish it will.

Or maybe it'll just lessen the pain of life;

Maybe it'll just lessen it to the point I cry myself to sleep at night

And not all the time

I wish or maybe I don't.

I’m not sure.

But I just need something or maybe...

Someone...

To help me get through hard times.

I just wish I could be saved.

Saved from what?

Saved from my mind,

All the thoughts in my head,

And the emotions that swirl in and out.

Yes that’s it,

I just need control over my thoughts and forget about life;

Even if it’s just for a little while.