Splinter 3 (Yaoi BoyXBoy)

【Chapter 20: Jail】「Satoshi」

Chapter 20: Jail

I couldn't stop wheezing in fear. Seeing someone kill themselves like that right in front of me got me shivering in fear. I don't want to go to jail. I want to live life, but I couldn't control my actions. My head ached so badly. Tears were escaping my eyes with each passing breath.

I recalled so many events that had happened recently. Everything is coming back to me.

I was the one drinking by myself that day at the cafe. That was why the lady gave me such weird looks when I spoke to myself.

Kyou pretended to speak to Kazuo to sooth me, and give me some piece of mind.

Kyou did tell Junko of my situation so he played along. I guess Junko must have heard me mumbling motorcycle at the time.

The moments when it looked as if people saw Kazuo was clearly in my mind. I was always pretending to be Kazuo that it looked like I was the one with split personalities.

The white pills were my depression medication.

But....

His grave was missing....

People did actually interacted with him..there was no way the world knew I was crazy...

Was Hiro real?

Did Takuto really come to save me?

The flashbacks came like a horror movie...

"Can I visit Kazuo's grave. I heard he died, and didn't want his name engraved...weird." I looked at Kyou awaiting his answer.

He looked a bit unsure, but nods. "Sure we can."

I remembered running to some random gravestone, and placing flowers on it. I didn't even know for sure if it was Kazuo's grave....was it? It was the single gravestone in the whole cemetery that had no name on it. I even looked up to Kyou who didn't say much.

"This is his right?" I asked for a confirmation, and he simply nodded. It didn't feel like he wanted to tell the truth. Does that mean Kazuo is alive? Where is he then?

I remember opening the door, and assuming I saw Hiro, but Hiro was still in jail. I confirmed it one day. I couldn't remember the day.

I wanted Hiro to lust for me. No...I wanted someone to lust for me that my imagination got the best of me.

Takuto was never here. I wanted a savior, but I knew Takuto wasn't always going to be around. This wasn't some fairy tale where I was saved every single time. Life didn't work that way.

The supposed missing gravestone was simply a hole dug for a new person.

The thallium....it was Kazuo's plan I decided to follow. I am a killer....I was so scared the first time I saw Kazuo kill someone, and now I felt numb to the feeling of ending someone else's life. It didn't seem scary anymore. I guess I was really numb to the point I had no emotion, but desired for Kazuo's attention.

Kazuo was the reason everyone died. Kazuo's family blood is cancer. His son was deadly. It was my fault. I wanted to chase this man down. He was great at first, but soon became physically, and verbally abusive. Yet I still stayed with him.

Was it worth it? The answer was no. The answer will always be no. I was just a fool not to have noticed. Now it is a bit too late.

"FREEZE! STAY ON THE GROUND!" I could feel the officers pinning me down. I woke that way, and almost wanted to cry, but I had no right to. I did this to myself. I wasn't meant to be out.