Dear Hazel, today was so messed up... went to the Drs, it was ok but he doesn't understand and I wasn't comfortable at all, mum cried. My mum made me take vitamin D because the sun is suppose to be good for you but we don't get much so she gave me vitamin tablets. I had a go at her because I didn't want to take it and then she made me walk the dog with her.
I wanted to see my best friend after school and he said no. I had an argument with her about it and I wanted to go to sit alone on this cute rooftop overlooking the sea. Mum called me back and had a go at me the whole way home saying she has her own problems and that I'm 'real mature' which I got pretty mad at. I told her she wasn't helping because she always goes on about how she wants to help me but I can't deal with that stress.
She forgot to pick up my brother and screamed at me saying it was my fault she forgot. She also told me I was selfish and didn't think about anyone other than myself. She left and the. Came back saying he wasn't there. She started crying and then not long after he rung home saying he was at the other entrance and she cried saying that I get all the attention. I was crying by this point and I started saying that I didn't want the attention and I didn't care, telling her to give my brother all the attention. I then started telling her to leave me alone while I was hysterically crying.
I literally was so depressed... I was suicidal too. Mum came home and told me that she told my brother everything because she couldn't cope. My brother then kind of cheered me up but not completely. so basically today was bullshit and my mum bought me a diary, yay.
Trust issues much.
My mother also said that my friends don't care enough to message me, thanks mum.
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Dear Hazel,
SpiritualThis is my real diary. Look into the life of a depressed, self harming 15 year old who wouldn't mind dying. Lets see how this goes and will I end up who I want to be...
