Yes, Ms. Robinson : Book 1

Cleanse

5 Days after using the burner phone...

It's like this every morning. I wake with his arms around me, it is truly ridiculous. But the sound of Ashley's voice kept me strong. He put his hands on my pregnant stomach, "morning babies." I found him snuggling himself closer to me and kissing on my neck so I had to act interested or else he'd beat on me just like he did last week when I wouldn't kiss him before he did his "work"

"morning Lex," I greeted him,using his old nickname I'd call him when we were together. He purred as kisses trail over my neck in his "lovingly" way. 

"Do you love me baby?" Alex asked as he pulled away hairs from my face. I was quiet for sometime until I knew I had to answer once his hands were over my neck softly beginning to wrap finger like a seductive snake in for the kill. 

I nodded quickly. "good, because I love you so much and this heart of mines doesn't belong to anyone else and for the rest of my life it won't. You'll see, once you love me more things won't seem so bad."

This opened a door way. "but I do Alex!" I yelped. I turned to face him so he could see how sincere I was as I lied him right in the face. "I really do and I want to have these babies with you, we're going to be the perfect family, this is my family now and you're my husband. Are you not? Ashley didn't ever care about me, all she ever wanted was the money and my family hates me!" 

I pressed my eyes together really hard and started thinking about my childhood memories then the waterworks came. I cried my mere ass off just to make it seem real. I cried on of his chest, clutching to Alex. "oh my love you don't know how good it is to hear that,"

I smiled. "I know and I even make booties for the babies once they get out and little sweaters, hats and everything. We're going to be the perfect family." I kissed him. Eww.

His hand was still around my neck, "oh sweet girl... It's beautiful how you think I easily believe the things coming out of that nasty little mouth of yours."  He removed the covers from his side and pulled down his boxers exposing himself then grabbed both of my cheeks from my face to open my mouth as he became rather solid over the next few seconds. "you will cleanse your mouth from your ugly little lies little girl."

He quickly slapped me, a few more times as well before he forced my lips downward onto him. Controlling the movements on my head in which were too harsh and quickly. I'd have used soap if he wanted to "cleanse" my mouth. I was being raped, taken advantage of and yet I still kept my heart stronger than a man he'll ever be. 

This fiasco had went on for the next fifteen minutes before he released and coated the insides of my mouth with his poisonous film. He leaves me alone but gives my behind a rather firm pat before leaving and saying, "breakfast is being made, come down in a few and after that you shall have your schedule talked through!" as if it was normal he talked.

What the hell was my schedule? When did I now get one? I felt like burning all of my fake hard work. I did need make sweaters for the babies, even though I had no intentions of keeping them. No I do not stand with abortion but I stand for perfect contraceptives and not having children from myself in my life time. What would my Perle Noir do?

I turned on my side-- Left, facing the window before me. Looking out and seeing the snowy Russian blizzard that served the morning. The pointy trees surrounding the estates and when I had gotten over my tears and spat out the filth watering about my mouth in a waste basket I looked outside and it was so beautiful. There were moose moving about their own business in the cold snow. How could they bear it? The dangerous Russian cold? I wanted to take them in. It was a male and female moose.