The Truth At Last

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Jessica's POV

"Of course I love you, you're my husband. Why on earth would you even think that I don't?" I say.

"Because you're ALWAYS with Sara, you two are practically dating," Christopher replies.

He always says that, ALWAYS. We fight almost every night and it's usually about how he thinks that I'm not in love with him. He thinks that I'm in love with Sara. Which I mean it isn't a lie, I do love Sara. She has a special place in my heart. I just, I get this feeling when she around. I don't know how to explain it, I only get that way when I'm with her. Just thinking about her makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Damn it. I'm blushing now.

"Oh my God! If you love Sara so much why don't you go marry her," Christopher says.

"Because I'm married to you Christopher, I. LOVE. YOU." I reply.

"Prove it then," he says before walking out to his car where he had the kids waiting already.

I watch as he drives away, tears streaming down my face. I curl up in a ball and cry until I physically cannot anymore, even then I just lay on the cold floor. I know I have to go film tomorrow but I can't bring myself to get up. I call Shonda and say tell her that I'm sick and won't make it in tomorrow then I curl back up into a ball and cry some more.

I wake up to the sound of my phone going off. I look to see who is calling me, it's Sara. She probably heard that I'm "sick" and is probably just checking in on me to make sure I'm ok but I don't want to talk to anyone right now, I just want to lay here and cry. I miss my kids so freaking much, I really wish Christopher would come home already. I realize that I'm not home much but I really do love him and my kids.

I finally get myself over to the couch and lay there, I look at my phone and see that Sara has been calling me every half hour and texting me right after I don't answer. I throw my phone on the other end of the couch. I really should talk to someone about this, I shouldn't just keep it bottled up. Then I hear the door open and I whip my head around to see who it is.

It's Sara.

"Jess I heard what happened," she says.