A BROKEN HEART

My hearts been weak lately and no not physically weak. I mean emotionally weak it feels unwanted, sad, and anger but just because I walk around with a smile on my face doesn't mean I'm happy it just means I'm smiling and truth be told it's how I've felt my whole life unable to feel happy or joy, or anything of that sort my whold life I've felt shund like some sort of outcast. when my mother and father had gotten divorced my whole world was crumble as if someone had just decided to take it all away my happiness, my joy, and now it feels like my love for others is coming to it's end but the only reason I say that is because I have been kind and have loved those who needed it but nothing has mad me feel loved at all I don't know what is to happen to me next but I can feel that one piece of me slipping away. This maybe the end of the Deshawn that everyone knows and loves I can't deal with all the pain I'm in every day having to hide all the time like a scared little boy hiding underneath his blanket hoping someone will come save him from this dark and alone prison . If their is a light I hope it guid me but for now I'll just have to wait