I'm about to go crazy, If Blake does not stop looking at me I swear im going to rip his head off. Why is he looking at me anyways....hes actually turning around in his desk and just looks at me for five seconds...is he trying to piss me off? I don't now...but its fucking working. I wish he would stop...everytime I see him a rush of memories come back, and know I feel sick. I cant take this. He reminds me of my father...someone I wish I could forget. I put my head down on my desk because I can feel the tears coming. I have to close my eyes tight to stop them from brimming over. I hear Mr.Varner clear his throat, and its directed at me im sure. But I cant look up, im being such a baby, why does this happen to me? Why cant I just forget about that year. I feel like im going to throw up. He clears his throat again, this time more loudly. I can feel every person in this room starring at me. They already think im a freak, I really don't need this right know. I force my head up and I can feel the warm tears that are coming from my eyes. I taste the salty mixture. I run out of the class room, behind me Mr. Varner calls my name. I hear someone else call my name but I cant place the voice. I run to the end of the hallway and throw up in the trash can. I lay down in the middle of the hallway and look up at the ceiling, this makes me feel better. I can imagine having wings and just floating away from here. But I cant, as much as I want to run away, I cant bring myself to do it. I need to stay here and act as normal as possible. That year will forever stay with me, but I don't have to let it ruin me.
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Damn Jennifers a beast I laugh silently to myself while I making out with her. Shes hot as hell but shes a little clingy...jeez this girl needs a room. Im just about to pull back from her when I notice everyones attention in the room shifts from Jennifer to the back of the room. Even Jennifer turns, I look behind me, and I cant breathe for a second. This girl is amazingly gorgeous, shes more than gorgeous, shes stunning, beautiful, sexy everything wrapped up in one. But this girl is more than just an ordinary girl, shes my ex. I haven't seen her since freshman year. After the "Incident" happened to her, she moved to another school her sophomore and junior year. Now shes a senior, so its been about two years. For a awhile she just stands there looking straight ahead. Then she shifts her attention to Jennifer and Jennifer does her signature weird laugh, I see pure hatred on Nikki's face but I realize shes looking at me with this mean expression. I just stare at her, I know I should probably not even look at her but I cant move my head, its stuck, even if I could I wouldn't. She so interesting to look at, she has long dirty blond hair to the middle of her back, its naturally curly, she has deep green eyes, but in the middle of them around the pupil its blue, only some people know about that because you have to get really close to see it. She petite, but with great curves, her bodys perfect. She has a straight nose with full cupids bow lips. She was the most sought after girl in the whole school freshman year, and I got her. It was love at first sight, for both of us. But as we started dating I began to notice little things about her that worried me. She always had bruises on her arms and legs, she would sometimes show up with a blue eye or cuts on her arms. She said it was from cheerleading, she was on the cheer team back then. But I knew something was up. Everytime I would say something about it she would stiffen up and act all weird, she would just brush it off as nothing serious. But it was more than the bruises, sometimes if I would touch her out of nowhere, she would jump, or if I would say she was cute, she would ask me not to call her that. It was all really weird, but I loved her and she loved me. Towards the end of the year I asked to meet her parents and she freaked out, she refused and said I could never meet them, so one day I got curious, when school let out I followed her home and waited till about 30 mintues until I came and peeked through the window, what I saw horrified me, I ran back to my car and threw up, the image of what I saw would forever be seared in my head. I got out my cell phone and called 911...my sole mate, my love was being beaten and raped. I could feel my heart tearing into millions of little pieces, and this time I knew I could never put it back together. I couldn't wait for the police like they told me to, and I charged in there and beat the shit out of her father, I nearly killed him. I could hear Nikki yelling at me to stop, but I couldn't. I heard the police sirens and ran outside to meet them. The next day, I walked up to Nikki and she gave me a big dazzling smile, I did not return it, I could barley look at her, I knew what I had to do, I said "Nikki, its over" the look on her face was devastated...it was worse than that, it was tortured,I didn't wait for a response, I turned around and went to the bathroom, I could hear quite sobs behind me as I left her. When I got to the bathroom, I banged me head against the door and I cried to. But now looking at her standing there brought a whole lot of emotions I hadn't felt in 2 years. Nikki took her seat behind me, and I couldn't stop looking at her, she was so much more beautiful than the last time I saw her, if that's possible. Every now and then I would turn around and look at her, she never met my eyes. Then when I was turning around to look at her again she had her head on the desk, with her hands covering her head. I didn't now what to think of that...what was she doing I thought to myself, I heard Mr.Vrner clear his throat...once...twice then she looked up, what isaw horrified me, she looked...horrible, her eyes were red and thre were tears rolling down her face, I could tell she was holding back sobs. She ran out of the room and I called her name, I had to make sure she was okay, I still loved her...I ran after her.
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sorry about the misstakes! im about otleave and i wanted to get this out before i did! (:
