down and under

Lucky not so lucky

As Taylor drags me down the street. I start to wonder, what would my life be if I did have a perfect life...if I did would I have a boyfriend, would I get married one day.will somone ever love me. My thoughts where stopped when Taylor said something.

"Where you listening? "

"Uhhh..yes.." I lie horribly.

"Ugh you weren't listening " she growls

"Oops" I say sheepishly.

She glares at me playfully. I smirk.

"Anyway....as I was saying...I am taking you to the book store" she smiles big and proud.

"Really, thanks you know how much I love books" I do agree that I am a book worm.

"I know" she chuckles as we walk into the store.

When we step in the store a small bell rings above us. I look around the store carefully. I walk away from Taylor,  I walk around the store. I sigh as nothing seems to catch my eye.

I walk back to where I left Taylor, she is talking to a guy. I think I am just gonna leave, I walk towards the door. The bell rings as I open  the door, I walk down the street.

I feel a small drop of water fall on my nose, I look up at the sky and see that the clouds are grey. The drops of water start to fall more faster and harder. I sigh, I love the rain I smile slightly.

I think I am gonna take the long way home. My hair starts to stick to my face, I brush it away. As I am walking I look up to see little kids running around in the puddles, laughing and having fun. I wish I could remember how it was to be that carefree.

My phone starts to ring, I look at who is calling me. Taylor I ignore it, and put my phone in my pocket.  I relized that I am almost home. The wind starts to pick up blowing my hair every where.

I walk up the stairs at my house, I grab my keys and open the door and lock it. I turn some lights, I walk into my bathroom and look at the mirror.  I see a broken girl who should have never been born, I let out a deep sigh.

I walk over to a shoe box and open it, I smile slightly not a happy smile a sad one that is broken. I grab my razors, I look at myself like it as a mirror. I walk back to the bathroom.

My phone rings, it's Taylor again I ignore it again. I pull up my sleeve, I bring the razor to my skin the coldness of it shocks me slightly. I drag the razor fast and swift, a red river starts to run. I feel all of my pain disappear, I push harder it bleeds more. Soon enough my arm is covered in blood, I can't stop this feeling is so addicting. I start to get light headed, I feel myself shift foot to foot trying to keep my balance.

I feel myself fall and hit the ground,  the only sound I here is my razor falling on the gound.  My eyes get heavy, as I blink on last time before all I see is darkness.

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* a/n ik it's not the best. Don't hate please. Anyways see you later my nuggets ♡