To Love You More (An Epistolary Novel)

001.3

(Jerika's Diary)

Ate Vice,

Mahapdi.

I saw his post on facebook. . . how sweet he was with his girlfriend. How I wish I'm his girlfriend (charot!). But srsly, I think never will be. Labo. Walang pag-asa. Owkay, I'm not being nega here. I believed Alice when she said 'believe in the impossible'. Pero, real life ito Ate Vice alam mo 'yan. Minsan talaga, hindi mapasaatin ang mga gusto natin. May mga tao talaga na out of our league, cannot be reached kumbaga. Parang siya. Yes, I'm quite known in ASU for being an org president, active in almost all of the university's activities and whatnots yet he didn't even know me nor my existence. Saklap 'di ba? Oh well. . . that's life. Tanggap ko naman na. Hindi lang naman ako siguro ang hindi crush ng crush niya.

I'm on my fourth year now in college and yes, apat na taon na rin ang aking lihim na pagtingin sa kanya. Alam mo bang na-try ko na i-google ang 'how to uncrush your crush?'. It gave me answers, though. But still, I couldn't find it in me to do all those things the article said was effective. I mean, what's the probability that doing those things will help my brain forget him? The only resolve I see is to let time heal me. Naks! Makakalimutan ko rin siya. Makakamove-on din ako. Tiwala lang. Yun lang Ate Vice. Salamat sa laging pakikinig sa mga rants ko sa buhay. Da best ka talaga. Hahaha.

Umaasa pa rin at umaasang makakamove-on na,
Jek 💋

PS. Balitaan kita kapag nakamove-on na ko hihi