A letter to life

A Dreamer

I came home and went straight to my room. I was in no mood to talk to anyone. I just had to be with myself and let my thoughts slowly untangle themselves. I was thinking too fast again,and my thoughts were slowly taking over me.

'Hey Charl, is everything alright?' my mom asked, worried.
'Yes mom, I'm fine, it's just been a very tiring day and my head is aching. I need some rest,' I lied.

I hate lying. It just creates so many problems. It just shows the amount of insecurities that you have but I wasn't ready to talk to my mom, or for that matter anybody at home. I just had to be alone.

I didn't want to think anymore, it just made matters worse because often my mind and my subconscious collide and I end up having very unfriendly thoughts.

'Charlie, you need to calm down. You're doing just fine. I know it's not easy to go through your problems but you'll sort it out. You're a good man and you have Samantha,' I could see my subconscious had created a manifestation to reassure me.
I was hallucinating, again.

I went straight to the bathroom and splashed cold water on my face, letting the droplets of water fall freely into the sink as the cooling sensation gave a rather soothing feeling.
I came out, all ready to write another letter to Samantha.

'Dear Samantha,
You seem like an amazing person and the amount of insult and criticism you have endured for something which isn't even your fault is something commendable. I totally respect the fact that you are an independent girl who can stand up for herself and fight for her rights. You're a good person. And about this mysterious 'he' person who you left the last letter with. I don't know who he is, but whoever he is, I hope he treats you well. After a point, you can't go through anything anymore, you're never invincible, every person here is flawed and to make those flaws into your advantages is something I've learnt from you. Maybe the world doesn't know you, but Samantha A. Vykes, you have left me longing to know more about you. You are strong, you are beautiful from the inside and I'll just advise you one thing. Don't ever change yourself for this world, because this world changes everyday into something that is beyond the planks of imagination. I'm going through problems myself. My life is a complete mess and as I solve every piece of that jigsaw, it just gets a more difficult game. I don't know what's happening with me or, what's happened to me.
Love,
Charlie.''

I folded the letter and took my satchel and left the house. I took a box of cookies and put the letter under those cookies and on the box, in big bold letters, I wrote, For, Samantha A. Vykes.

'Charlie, where are you taking those cookies? And where are you going? You just came back,' my mom asked as she came from the kitchen.
'I'm going to meet Jack mom. We're broke at the moment so we can't afford fast food but a box of cookies? Sure.'
Another lie, I cursed myself as I walked out of the house and slammed the door shut.

I went to the subway and took a train. I went to the beach and kept the box of cookies behind a boulder and in such a position where the name could be visible.

I can't wait for tomorrow. The replies were all I looked forward to in my whole routine. They brightened me up and reading them made me feel that I had someone with me.

This girl suddenly seemed like this whole new person who had completely taken over life and I liked the fact. I walked out of the beach, smiling, knowing that a reply awaits me.