Falling For You

Party

Gon arrived at Retz's house a quarter to six. But when he got there, he had to do a double take and recheck the address in the text Retz had sent him to make sure he was at the right location.

  Her house was not what he expected.

It wasn't as big as the Zoldyck mansion, but it was in the second richest neighborhood and perhaps the biggest house on her block. A balcony ran across the windows on the second floor where lights were turned on and Gon assumed that was the party venue.

Wonder if Killua is here yet. Gon thought, as he slowly made his way towards the front walk, which was at least half a mile long. When he was halfway across, he heard footsteps behind him and turned to see Killua trailing behind. His breathe hitching, Gon stops. "K-Killua?"

The pale boy looks up to come face to face with him and freezes, blue eyes holding grief, enough to shatter Gon's heart.

"Hey, Gon." His voice was timid, quiet, unlike the Killua he was used to.

Gon took a step towards him, swallowing and a lump catches in his throat. "K-Killua. I-I just wanted to say I-I'm sorry...so so sorry. About what I said. I didn't mean it, and-"

"But it's true." Killua would cut in. "Not about the part of me not caring, because I do Gon. You have to be a real idiot if you really think I don't after everything we've been through in just the course of one month."

Gon nods, knowing that Killua was absolutely right. He was stupid. For saying all those cruel things to the boy now standing before him after two weeks. The one he fell in love with in such a short time.

"I really don't deserve you, Killua." Gon stated, eyes down casting towards the ground. "Especially not after all the things I've said to you." It was difficult for him to speak, the lump still caught in his throat and a choked sob escapes him. "I-I'm an awful person and selfish...I-I do things without even asking you if you're o-okay with it and I'm j-just so sorry, Killua." Tears were now steaming down his cheeks and he wipes at them furiously, not wanting to turn into a sobbing mess before the party even started.

  A span of silence fills the air. It was tense and awkward and Gon looks up to see Killua staring at him, and just when he opens his mouth to speak again, the pale boy cuts him off.

  "It's me who doesn't deserve you, Gon." Killua would say quietly, kicking at the cement with his sneaker.

Gon blinks in surprise. "W-what do you mean? I was awful to you. I said awful things. For fucks sake, I made you cry, Killua."

Killua's heart pounded from within the confines of his chest. I'm the awful one.

"You're just so pure, Gon. Amazing. Brave. All the things I'm not, but crave to be. You deserve better."

Another span of silence would fill the space between them until Gon broke it. "Are you serious, Killua?"

Gon's tone surprised him.

"You're so wonderful and brilliant. Not to mention beautiful." The raven head spoke this in a rush, and the heat rose to Killua's face. "But most importantly of all...."

"Please don't be embarrassing." Killua begged, training his eyes towards the ground

  "....you put up with me." Gon finished. "You might think everything I'm saying right now is bullshit, but it's the truth. I mean every word of it." His voice no longer wavered. "I'm a terrible person with anger issues to boot."

  "Tell me about it." Killua huffed.

  "I'm selfish. These past two weeks without you were hell without you by my side and it made me realize something."