Dear _____
I know you're with your mom right now, but I have a lot to get off my chest. And I can't go to anyone else about this. You and I have a different relationship than most. Our hearts both beat for each other but yours also beats for someone else much more strong. Your with that person....I knew I shouldn't of let my heart start beating for you. But I did because I thought you felt something also. You might but I don't know if you truly do. I feel lost within my thoughts, when I think about you,my parents,my friendship,and my mistakes. I don't think what we have going on is good because your with my bestfriend. I lie to her when she asks how I feel about you. I tell her that your just my friend and I don't feel anything more for you,but I do and that's pretty fucked up. She tells me if anything happens between me and you I should tell her. But I can't. Because I don't wanna risk losing her. She and I have been through so much together. If I didn't have her I would be a completely different person. Which that doesn't sound so bad right about now; to be honest with you. I miss the old me. The one that was always happy and stuff. The me now is happy sometimes but not all the times. I'm in love with you and I don't know what to do about it. It's not like I can say anything to you about it even though you know I love you. Yes I get jealous when you and her are on the phone I do get jealous. Maybe it's best for me to just forget about you. Because you are my kryptonite.
💜 D
