Chapyer XV

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WARNING!! DEPRESSING!!!                                                          My mom threw up in the yard, she had never done anything like this before. My mom looked at me and said "GO AWAY" I just looked at her. I didn't do or say anything. My mom has been drinking? I thought to myself. This made me cry. Seàn did everything he could to calm my mom down, I was to scared to do anything. "GO SOMEWHERE BESIDES HERE" My mom said once more. I run. I don't know where to run, I just run. Then stop,and have a bad thought. Something bad will happen to her. I almost had an anxiety attack, Seàn, looked at me, worried. I had to suck this up. "Mom!" I scream. Running back to her. Then a horrible scent came to my nose. I smelled alcohol, and drugs. "Get AWAY FROM ME!" She yelled. Seàn comes to me, and says "We have to go to my place." I nodded my head and said to my mom "I'll be back! I promise!" The entire gang walk back to Sean's house. I was still upset. " you ok babe?" Sean asked behind me. I didn't say anything. Tears fell down my face silently. Wade was always a fun person to be around, Wade had to do something. "Signe, did you know about this?" Wade asked, concerned. I still didn't say anything. I was in shock that my mom never told me this before. Some days she would act weird, but I never knew why. But I never knew she did drugs too. "Babe, say something" Seàn said holding my hand. "S-somedays, she would act weird, and funny, but I liked that about her." I said, with a bit more confidence. "I N-never knew w-why." I said, starting to cry again. "I don't know why she would keep this a secret from m-me. I'm such an idiot for not finding this out sooner." Seàn hugged me when Bob said "Signe, it ok. She didn't want you to worry." PJ came up to me and said, "Signe, we'll be here for you no matter what. Keep that in mind." I thought about that for a while. Then I said "I smelled drugs. ." everyone just stood in silence. And Amy was having a breakdown, along with Molly. They hated seeing me in a uncomfortable situation. When we arrived at Seàn's house,Seàn  told his mom everything. His mom was the sweetest. "Signe, you can stay here as long as you need to, you are our family." That made me cry a little bit more. While we were there, the whole group watched movies and played overwatch. It got late. I had no choice but to stay, because my mom was now a crack head. When I entered Seàn's room, he was in his bed looking at something. I cuddled up next to him and said "What's that babe?" He was holding a green notebook, titled, "to Seàn" it was a note. Tears fell down his face as he read. Concerning, I ask "Babe?" He stops reading and looks at me tears fell down his face. I knew what this was. "Awe babe!" I say hugging him, letting him cry into my arms. I let him cry for a while. Then I read the note.

Dear Seàn.
I will give this to you when I die. I know you were not close with me and your mother. I was busy with work, and your mother was busy with the other siblings, who had gone crazy. You were always on your video game to keep you company. In your highschool years, you were busy with your band and school work, I was still busy with my job. We were never close. I wanted to let you know, I love you, more than you could imagine. I've always have loved you, even if I never said it. I want to say to you, That even if I may be gone, along with your granny, and papa, and great aunt, etc, we will be with you no matter were you go. You may not feal it, but we are always with you, and we always did, and always will love you. Always,
                                                                            -Dad

I wish he wasn't gone, there is so many things I want to say to him!" Tears came. (A/N I'm crying Omg) "I should have said something when I had the chance." Seàn said. I crawl up next to Seàn and hug him. I look at him dead in the eyes, and say "He knows." Sean looked at the notebook, flipping the pages. There were pictures of Sean's dad and him when he was a baby. He smiled at the pictures. He looked at me with a smile, and our lips collided. The long, sweet kiss distracted me from my surrounding. I completely forgot about my mom, Sara, my anxiety, and about everything. We eventually broke, with me in Sean's arms.
"I love you Signe" I heard Seàn say





"I love you too"







Hi! I'm so sorry if you cried, I cried making it. If this reminded you of something you went throughout, I am terribly sorry! I hate making people cry.😭😭😭😭😨😨
I went the depressing mode because I did t know what else to do. Again, if you cried, (that makes two of us) I'm sorry I'll speak to you in the next chapter!

A/N I have another book, "Septiishu one shots!" Check it out!
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