Just Getting Started- Kogan/BTR Fanfic

5: Edge of Desire

A/N: Hey guys, sorry for not posting... My fingers have been sooo colt this last week, so I can barely write... But I feel so guilty for leaving you with such a cliffhanger, so I'll ignore my frozen fingers! Another reason to the slow update is that just got a new phone (YAY FINALLY) and I'm still getting used to it! (The keyboard is much bigger and I get writing errors all of the time) I'll practice :3 Anyways, enjoy the story, and don't forget to vote and comment! :)

For once, Kendalls jaw dropped. He continued to stare at Logan, who stared down at his hands in his lap.

"Excuse me, could you please say that again?"

Logan lifted his face and faced Kendall, who was now just inches from his face.

"You heard what I said, but I'm telling you once more... I'm gay."

Kendall's eyes were looking everywhere but Logan.

Wasn't this just what he wanted? That the boy he loved was also gay?

Kendall wanted so badly to just kiss Logan. But he couldn't. What if he didn't liked him? Things would just have been awkward if he tried to kiss him.

Instead, Kendall cleared his throat.

"For how long?"

"For how long have I known that I was gay?"

Kendall nodded.

"Uh... I don't know. One and a half, two years ago maybe?"

Kendall just nodded again. He was just... Speechless.

Logan raised an eyebrow.

"Why don't you say something?"

When Kendall still didn't answered, Logan stared at his lap and spoke again.

"I get it. You think that I'm a freak, don't you? Just like everybody else."

Logan was broken. He should never told Kendall, now he would surely think that he just fell head over heels in love with every guy he met, including him.

But Kendall was different. He was the only one.

Kendall wanted to comfort the shorther brunette. He wanted to tell him that he wasn't any freak. His whole body, except for the brain, wanted to tell Logan that he also was gay. The brain told him that he would be bullied, that he was less worth if he came out.

Unfortunately, his brain won the inner fight he had, but not fully.

Kendall scooted even closer to Logan than he already was, and put his arm around Logan's shoulder.

"Logan," he whispered in his ear, "I don't think that you are a freak. And I don't want you to think so eighter. Please, don't cry," Kendall said as he dried the tears that had appeared on Logans face.

"Don't cry, Logie. You are worth more than those haters who says that you're a freak. Please, don't let people tell you any different, you're perfect."

He didn't meant to say the last thing, but he meant it. Anyways, it seemed to make Logan a little more happy.

"Thanks, Kenny," he said with tearful eyes.

~Just getting started~

Kendall would tell Logan later.

When he was ready. This wasn't the right point.

Logan was still crying. He had burried his face in the crock of Kendalls neck, and breathed in the sweet scent of his Aftershave.

Logan loved Kendalls scent. He wanted this moment to last forever, because of the way Kendall was holding him.